The Struggle..for identity...and Freedom.........

dull day

2006-09-21T23:23:00.000+08:00

Sigh still annoyed with the damn skl but screw it man.. apparently hv been sorted out according to names like wtf..its the most dumbest thing ive ever heard...of course leave it to my beloved skl wld think of such a way...like hw they tot 13 is such a nice divisble number for a class,esp when it coms to grp work.

anyway supposed to meet with kim today but like last min had visiots like wth...forever man..cant ppl ever nt make things last min?sheesh iw as so annonyed la then they left like at 6 plus then preety much useless to go out after tat...sigh im so sry kim... maybe tml yeah?

So with much annonyance i went to cool down at my park.. i dun know y i felt like goin there sigh then i just started walking and walked all the way to the beach... my home man..sigh almost reminded me of nz the smell is diff though and since its nite i cldn't see all the rubish and stuff. i was sitting at the breakwaters there..somehw seeing the waves crashing agains the sand and looking at the night sky with it glorious cresent like moon calms my nerves.

I even got inspired to write stuff..wahah..yeah i shall call it stuff coz i dunno what it is...yeah... felt kindaf crappy the whole time... been feeling like that for the whole wk actually but i dun know why..its so frustrating...ack...it doesn't make sense to me i tot i wld feel better being away frm skl but like almost like nt much of a diff but i much rather be on hols then in skl though... sigh..

but anyway on to the highlight of the day.. well yeah michael's back for good or so his mum told him...heh i had the shock of my life when i felt a hand grabbing me today i actually shrieked...sheesh..but yeah..hes gonna go to ACSI like wth and stay at the hostel there or something.yay i get ot see him more often i guess nt as much but yeah...oh well at least like doesnt suck too much yeah...

peeved

2006-09-20T18:43:00.000+08:00

ahh mt moronic school decided that we need ot change class lke wth..im gonna burn down the school la... i mean i didnt even feel this much annoyance with bvss and we know hw much i hate that freaking school..bleh... got stuck with 2 morons la.. the wors people in my class.sheesh wat a luck..ahh if they hv issues wif me la.. but if they gonna annoy me again this sem they gonna get it big time.. those fuckers..assholes...die die.. forever picking on me... wow im starting to swear a lot..more than usual.
ahhh dunno hw to survive nv sem also..sigh..hope louis in my class la...maybe i will survive if hes there at least will shut the sandbag la....

blabla bla.. prob will sone inc lass or something.. i shall prepare for the worse....

anyway im in sg newwave nw..whoot at least will hv something to do..but i feel like doing journalism la... review unrealeased movies leh..but all lsots finish maybe nxt yr or something..heh.. they will be launching on nov2 at some arthouse thing hw cool is that... oh yeah and i intend to join 4 ccas...wahaha i know im mad but yeah since i cant decide and all..yeah.. oh and whiny arse its tech all ur fault coz like u keep reminding me abt the cert thing..wahaha...

oh and lo is comign down..she was like shes gonna come down with drew but liek near diwali time i was like wth prob wont be free la mad gal la that one..then she said mybe sept 23 plus hmm.. maybe then can... eh whiny arse make sure u free ah

hmm.. wat else.. oh yeah.. i find dreeadful took back my info essay nt bad i scorced 40+/50...yay me..but then in the end writcomm got c..bloody hell la....all coz of proposal essay..ive no idea hw to write it la..freaking hell..oh well.. that dude also nv tell me what wrong or anything..arse man.... ya and my gpa sux ahhhh...then goes my COM... crap la had long lectures..bla bla bla... gonna be like O's again..

ok after all these mutterings erm.. on the gd note... i was erm.. i dunno...when did a webdesign again.. css style..retro man..whee i love it..wahaha... but screwed up my coding so it will prob be just a design..heh...yeah...
ok thats it ....

kim..meeting u tml...better be there..dun ditch me ah...

repressed feelings

2006-09-09T03:30:00.002+08:00

sigh!still dun feel very happy....y...y...y...no idea...just feel alot of built up anger and stuff...argh...dammit y....nt fair!bloody sucky life...hardly getting enuf slp...im sleep in the mornings nw...or sometime i dun slp at all...worse if i slp in the afternoon but then i wont be allowed -_-
ahhh...take me back to the past..anything but before april06..sigh...

even here i cant find peace...sigh...

ookok i shall cheer up..3 more yrs to go eh...lets hope i live thru it...

hmm... i love tamakai haha...

i wanna find a french-jap guy..haha..
oh and i want my own chateau

and kim idiot..lets hang out soon..i miss ur nonsense.....

oh yeah and dmc gathering soon?haha mitch hw abt it? wifout acid face of course..haha unless she books us a chalet..shes doin that all the time nw..biased sia..

repressed feelings

2006-09-09T03:30:00.001+08:00

repressed feelings

2006-09-09T03:30:00.000+08:00

the tragedy

2006-09-04T00:40:00.001+08:00

got proposal essay results back...sucky..i failed la wtf...at least not a grammar prob..yay i think..but stil..ahhh im such a disgrace to zee former 4/6..wats the pt of being frm the top engrish class ah...man i wld rather take GP a hundred times..i miss narrative comps....haha remember the muglet story...but the tradegies and the spy stories..i know julian oved the morbid spy stories haha....and reading was fun then.. i dunno y somehw it was..i miss lit too...waahhhhhh! ok whiny and reminscing over all this is nt gonna help me lts just say i MISS SAC A LOT AND I WANNA GO BACK!

i found out chucky boy is no longer there man..ahh so sad...i love to make fun of him..he thinks hes so smart..dumbass...
damn shld hv gone back for teachers day heartbreaak la...nxt yr maybe nxt yr i will..

oh yeah and the poster thing i did...i got full marks..eh my graphic design nt bad..i wanna do more photomanipulation but im nt allowed too coz i jsut cant find the rite images..i need models... im gonna bug nar la nee..haha..or is it na nee ninny..

meet up wif some peeps..all said i changed..haiz sad man.. i iwhs i didnt too... i miss the crazy me:D..the dunno wat vampire melt in sunlight,cursing mumbling idiot...and yeah the funny me..oh witty yes witt. i am witty la u whiny arse...

eh whiny arse... u know sometime i feel i shld hv listen to u and gone tpjc la..everyone is there sia.. or maybe even tp ..ok nt Tp so blur la..but yeah..sighs.. oh well...or Sp yup yup!

ok nvm 2 more rs of misery eh i shld be able to tahan lars..yup..if i cant also SIC man..seriously..but hv to talk to my unce for tat..sigh..troublesome sia..

erm..watelse...i dunno.. eh kim ..best buddy..i cant seem to contact u lars..wth did u go man..lets meet up soon.. i need to hang out wif sane ppl or ill go mad..and max misses u..but dun go kissing it ah...haha

ps..we hv to hv a dvd movie marathorn..who wants to come?

the tragedy

2006-09-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

sheesh

2006-09-02T03:24:00.000+08:00

i might stop bloggin soon... i dunno or ill blog whenever i feel like i have to vent something...feeling emo and crappy..dunno y..sigh..
y has my life turned like this..ive nv been so emo in my entire life...ahh...i hate to say it but i think i act miss the school as well nt just the ppl...the place where i was happpy...or as much as i cld be even wif all the homework...ive nv been so lost, lonely and emo....fuck life...
i wan a real imaginary frend...:D

anguish

2006-08-27T01:10:00.000+08:00

im feeling so depressed..and this totally sux since its my hols like wth i shld be out enjoying myself but no matter hw much i try and pschye myself into being in a cheerful mood its just not working.......sigh..im not even getting my sugar high nowadays or goin out much.!!y!!!
ack!gotta get out of this soon..tot it wld be ez..ash help me!!... the comfort food is not working man neither does tv.Though music seems to work nt too bad..music heals my soul lol cliche shit but yeah..ohh i like shayne ward's no promises saw the video nt too bad i just like this song it kindaf rubs onto u after a while and i love like really love the song unfaithful the music is soooooo nice..gosh im just listening 2 these songs over n over again..peace:D

bored

2006-08-23T01:45:00.000+08:00

Let me tell you write now im freakin bored...bored..no useless idiots are online..the ones that i can poke fun of..sigh..today was seriously a pathethic day.. i didnt get my rejuvenation frm making fun of/annoy people as i dint really go out today...tsk..so sadly i called my cuz(see wat im reduced to..) and yeah...
wait act i did make fun of someone today..but wasn't very long coz that idiot fell asleep on my couch AGAIN..seriously and she has spastic jaw problems...damn the next time im seriously gonna video cam it and put it in you tube...its the funniest thing alive.. ok one of it anyway...even my dog was amused..it sat infront of her and was jsut watching her..guess from all that drooling it was wondering whether a not that the spastic person could possible be the same species as it...lol...

Yeah and so i was really bored and decided to go onto friendster..didnt bother loginin but just randomly viewing it... and man did i find a lot of amusing crap there..made my day i tell you.. ill share you some insights tml..

And heres my quote of zee day:

ITS NOT DENIAL..IM JUST SELECTIVE ABOUT THE REALITY I ACCEPT...

Coming soon to the crypt...a perspective into language...

Sneak preview....

i found out that if u...Split the word "women" up like this Wo men its act a chinese word meaning "us"..tsk even in language there is sexism y cant they split the men huh? they just cant stand the idea of us girls sticking together..Chauvinistic pigs...screw them...

randomness

2006-08-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

For the annoying arses who keep asking me what they mean..tsk...esp misanthropic...tsk check a dictionary man...
p.s these are my fav words..nt that u care..but just sayin

cyn·ic P Pronunciation Key (snk)
n.
A person who believes all people are motivated by selfishness.
A person whose outlook is scornfully and often habitually negative.
Cynic A member of a sect of ancient Greek philosophers who believed virtue to be the only good and self-control to be the only means of achieving virtue.

misanthropical

adj 1: believing the worst of human nature and motives; having a sneering disbelief in e.g. selflessness of others [syn: cynical, misanthropic] 2: hating mankind in general [syn: misanthropic]

sat·ire P Pronunciation Key (str)
n.
A literary work in which human vice or folly is attacked through irony, derision, or wit.
The branch of literature constituting such works. See Synonyms at caricature.
Irony, sarcasm, or caustic wit used to attack or expose folly, vice, or stupidity.

penny for my thought

2006-08-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

went for a walk..night walk..alone..really nice and quiet..peaceful thing....and if you act close your eyes and listen well you can hear the trees rustling and the squirks of squirrels...lol.. ok this is like some intro to some lame shit ass comp that i might have written for tamil..wahaha..cant believe they used to give high marks for this crap la..wahaha...thanks for the marks and the prizes anyway..

yup so walking and pondering over life...waha.then after the chat on the mrt..made me really ponder and rattle the brain of mine...and i found this..

Love is futile
Hope is Gone
Man is said to have been god's greatest gift
But did god make a mistake i wonder
Look at the world around you
What do you see?
Abandoned Babies
Corruption, murders
How humane are we?
how different are we from animals
Sometimes we're no different
sometimes we are worse
We're supposed to be the smarter beings
The ones with moraltiy
but what do you we do?
We exploit people,make use of them
Has anyone ever been a true frend?
Has anyone ever done something without any motives
Yeah there are some among us
But how many
the numbers are few
and in this materialistic power greedy world
What dominates all?
Money
not love
not hope
not even god
For most its The evil dollar
And with that in mind
We seek to acheive it all
the perfect live
the perfect live of a socialite
But well never be satisfied
Well just crave more and more
At the expense of everything,family,friends and even pride
Alas we humans
Shall be doomed or shall we be saved?
Only he'll decide

nada wheeda doda

2006-08-21T23:23:00.000+08:00

boo...ok im damn bored nw..i finished the stupi pirate game..i rock..i act beat/overtook vivian la...wahha..so farni man.. i win e bet man.. wonder wat it is though...hope tts got nuthing to do wif apples..oh speaking of apples
Frm deathnote
:
Shinigami's logic: money=apples=happiness

wow dun u wish life was simple as that....oh well..feeling super emofied again..haha think all the rattling with that monkey reminded me of stuff..oh well...used to it...whoot yay me.i can go on..

hmm... i decided a very bitchy thing to do..gonna break ties wif kyle after the trip...think its the best thing for the both us... be hard a few days but thou shall mange and be strong...i am la..yeap yap then move on to freedom..without guilt can go out and stuff...waha..im such a bitch..oh well love being one...aint it fun..waha..and if i lose it slap me wif a trout..lol..doubt i will ah.. since i gave ppl so much advice..best way to forgot a guy is to look for another eye candy..wahaha..nice motto in life man.. hw hard can it be...

oh see i told u the stupid guy whom i dunno asked me out that day but said no and just have his number ...will come in handy some day...wahaha..might consider..see this is foresight la

oh and the best way to prevent hangover is to drink honey lemon dunno wat thing just imeed after u wake up...boy do u feel fresh and alive but after a few hrs..its comes back la..stupid shit..soemone go invent a cure man...

ah i shall resume back to my hidden musing world where i can make snide cynical remarks abt the world..muhahha...hey i sound like kira..so cool...i think..stupid evil shit died in the end but still...hes cool in a twisted way oh well...i aint that sane anyway..back to my crazy in sane world..

toodles.

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updated

2006-08-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

ok wat happened on tues:
i didnt see at all..ok maybe for 20 mins but tats it man..y?...coz had to do a stupid thing call art..freak man..had been sewing and cutting and spraying the whole day..gosh nv worked so hard in my entire life..wahaha..damn farni and sad..sobs..no slp at all..maybe only 20mins..my frends stayed over too and we did liek night shift duties..2 by two did work..i cldnt take it at 4 so i woke the rebecks up than prawn went 2 wake up V then we switched..i nicely slpt on the floor under my bed..wahah..became like my dog man.. but yeah... i happily tot ok last one day come bakc home then slp but no...we didnt finisht he aperwork so stayed in skl till 5pm to do the stuff..and after i went home and showered and stuff my mum happily didnt let me slp-_-
she wanted me to wait till my bedtime so i wont stay up.gosh..i almost died la...i think i only remember crashing into the bed and woke up like at 3pm wah..then still had skl if nt i wld hv hiberanted till the end of the wk.
the project was fun la we still managed to talk crap and life stuff and made fun of ppl..wahah..ill miss hangin out wif those idiots for a while i think...haha V wan go out sometime wif the rest also...good good...

Oh met danny boey and he was talking abt destiny and stuff..damn farni la he..then he gave us Mission X...i wanna do..looks fun...ok...hmm.. then maybe can get into commitee?hopefully...wahah..act i dun really care abt that..but it sound interesting..

hmm...then i dun remember wth i did on the other 2 days so ill move on 2 friday...

erm.. went 2 skl for nuthing..fcp rm locked..tso dun wan open lars..argh..then met Vinod there..that hanged out for a while..then..sms the wols woman to meet and hopefully watch click..she said 30mins la..then turn out 1hr..haha expected..by then i walked almost the whole of central clementi la..madness..oh wif my wonderful bubbletea...lovelove....yup then went under her blk to wait for the slow poke..finally the wols woman came la...damn wols i tell u...erm..then went plaza sing..ohh i saw a squirrel on a tree btw..wahaha..so cute..sadly its in clementi..
alrite moving on..the train rite there was excruciatingly slow..so sad..then the escalor ride of my life so many of them..finally reached the theatre yeap yeap then missed the darn show was like at 420 and it was already 435 so no pt..then went to watch a lame ass film called my super ex-girlfriend..nt so farni man..sad la..10 bucks dw the drain..oh well..anyway yup..then i went home..didnt feel like meeting them later on..felt emofied again..yeah..
thats all..

dafomous

2006-08-15T10:41:00.001+08:00

weedle...kk..im stoning...bored..no mood to write...just quick update..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM!!!MY YING YANG NONSENSICAL..BEST BUDDY...HAVE A GOOD DAY AHEAD AND DESPITE IT BEING UR EXAMS..CHILL MAN..DUN STUDY TOO HARD..ITS WORTHLES....TAKE CARE OK U IDIOT..WAHAHA...LUV LUV...

BAck to BOring Update on My LIfe....yEaaP...

most unproducative day for art.. had the longest bus ride of my life..nv taking bus for a long time..phobia already la...bloody hell...it was a freaking tour ard sg like that..fanri thing is rebecca sitting beside me then she was slping la..then her mouth was wide open.. then i was thinking whether to throw stuff inside..but nv..haha..prawn then say nxt time put colgate or soemthing..wahaha...then i think i saw a sheep on the way wth... seing things already...then lets see we were so jaded then didnt feel liek doing so took a long walk went all the way to siglap park there..not the whole thing.. michael!!! the colouful light thingy was not working ...then our area there got ppls nw..hw sad..but i still saw the symbols..wahha...its our AREA!!....anyway but didnt go there la..last thing is need for them to see.. waha.. and then oh brought max along...he like dragged everyone along..rebecca was walked by the dog..hhaha..think she went surfing /flying today...

we talked abt life..wahah..and lucid dreaming and stuf..damn interesting leh...think we shld do tt more often..wif out needing to do work..very random things but..damn cool...i feel intellectually stimulated..waha..thats gd..tot my brain died here...

hmm.... then watelse yeah...erm..they bought instant noodles...ate..then decided to screw off today..cldnt do anything...really damn tired then they still had writcomm to do so yeah.. tml meeting have to fiinish..and im supposedly doing design rationale but like cant think la..

talkin to kyle nw..our conversations seem to get really curt again..wtf happened i dunno ahh1..dammit it think its my fault la..haiz...ack..i shld just give up all this shit...

anyway..sharon was like asking me whether im really gonna go galavanting wif kyle..then i was like i dunno..maybe..but then i like really wanna go la..i mean wats the worse can happen la...ok alot..but still i mean cant be that bad..we're mature ppl.. at least one of us is..and my cuz will prob be coming i think...

waha then ash was whining abt hw she cant kiss eric for a long time nw..coz the smart alec..injured his mouth...wahah..funny shit man.. i mean i tot injuring my tooth wif a fry was bad but tis is ridiculous la..wahaha.all u whiny arses...

K sounds eager abt the trip..hmm.. i dread waha..

i realise i dread really happy moments so after tat something bad always happens...ack..so used to it must remind myself nt to get to happy at times..as ridiculous as it sounds..sad man...

hmm..not a quick update after all...wahaha...erm.. yeah...whoot only one more day till end of jail term..then its freedom for two mths..like wth..i feel like going on bail for 2 mths man...waha..must plan me schedule...

ranting...

2006-08-12T23:39:00.000+08:00

ahhh 2 more projects with a freakin tight schedule is being a pain in the arse..dying.. drowning in work...the worst thing is im kindaf in holiday mood already so cant really concentrate much..ack!

moving on... ermm my dog sold me out for dog treats..such an arse la...whole day barking at me demanding tha ti bring it down and gie it food and water and scratch it...then nearing 8 plus when my dad is abt to come hm it acted all emo and sad..and liked complained by whining and stuff...ack!idiot i tell u..can act like dunno wat.. ill post an emo pic of it when i fig out hw..wahha...gosh i wish i cld jsut hate it... but its soo cute...argh! irritating...oh well its still my lil darling waha...

TURNING BACK TIME..BACK TO FRIDAY....

met gremlin at nlb qif vj..suppose to meet at 12 erm.. woke up late wahah then went at 2pm..yeah fashionably late as usual...unless if my dad drops me then im nv late..heh.. boring i tell u.. i dunno wat to say to her waha..anyway then she happiyl told me shes gonna stalk someone then i had nuthing ot say after tat..yeah..think i got quite freaked out...
anyway after that went to meet sharon at bugis...on the way i saw dave wif his girlfriend waha the idiot..damn blind..until i started insulting him..by shouting his nick..waha..rather not say... then got immed reaction..bet u pretended not to see me la...idiot..

anyway he snatched my cap and messed up my hair stupid fool...

ok moving on..met sharon at bugis junction i was EARLY!!!! u were late by one min!!! waha still...i was early see i can be early....argh!the main pt is tha ti was EARLY.. anyway yeah then we ate at bk..damn full la almost died 1/2way..then she was whining abt cutie wahaha...haiyo..ditch him la..best way to forget a guy is to look for another to drool over..go UWC but chatsworth got nice ones worth knowing yeah..love the place man....anyway moving one....erm. yeah and we saw the all star glory..evil gerbil thing which we took pics of..waha.. myDPS!...

then i realised i was gonna meet rita at 630 but it was already 627 haha..then i was like shit..late..then nicely received her sms will be late so we walked like slow pokes..mainly sharon waha lost her int he crowd..almost..heh...then we were receiving msgs that cityhall was damn crowded thank to the media..the fireworks got so popular that the whole city was like there...so yeha we ditched the idea..then went to me house..and i was insistant on taking a photo today decided to take a pic of a cat..after much hunting..i found a cat nicely posing than this woman had to come running ..panting and make so much noise that frightened the life og the cat and me..!! argh! then i gave up the idea..my bat friends were happily flying ard way too fast to capture any..one dya i will...anyway..so gave up the idea.. and she logged onto the blog here and laughed at my 29 things to to..abt my 2 trips coz apparently to her i intented on tripping twice madness i tell u and my hiberante.... i will call it whatever i wan its a hibernating festival i made up la...haiyo... and she almost forced me to take a pic gosh..but i convinced her otherwise....but she took one of me chanting..wahha then i threathend her lfie and deleted it and yeah made fun of my badminton skills again... i improved ok..and pri 5 was a long itme and i accidnetally hit gill la....argh!....we shall play one day..
Gosh i act miss the times we walked home and makan and stuff oh and lo dragging us to places...heh...
oh and bowling man!!!waha ECP here we come!!

n im not racist against my own race la..dun be an arse..ha..if u meant the raj guy.. its madness..

mugi rox..mugi rox...ill start my mediatative chant...
waha jden and his nonsensical blog...im gonna die laughing..a vegetable holocaust.. hmm...
and thin's eating prata at 1.08am...not that im surprised that black hole is eating.. she like this vacuum thing ..stupid black hole inhales everything.. she eats more than nita,me and 7 camels and shes still a stick..stupid thin..dun u hate this sort of ppl...idiot!! thin i sun like chews!... oh and the prata bet!!!eat 15 pratas in one go ah..

angry rant

2006-08-11T01:27:00.000+08:00

this is an angry rant..so ignore it if u will...

THAT IDIOT JULS decided to get a blog ..ok i knew abt his old blog but then he didnt insult me that much...that idiot nw he decided to let the world knw abt his sinster plans..ahhh1cant stand him.. this shld be my job la..idiot!!!aahh! wanna stranggle him.. its my duty to annoy ppl not him... idiot he cant annoy me.. im the annoyer born to annoy...ok u know getitng insane here..its 1am plus so spare me but sitll.. ah mad fella..then he goes on write until like that la..arse sia..idiot

i do not pretend ok and its not like im attached to him or anything dun be an arse..its called an open realtionship for a reason dumb arse..think like u is it...i shall not mention certain things coz i nice..hmm.. i shlla not reduce to ur level..

k i end now im calm and sane and rational and im MUGI...mugi rox..shall do my chanting whaha..mugi rox mugi rox...heh..
me slp nitex peeps.

OH AND GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE DOING TESTS FOR AUDIOTECH/PRELIMS/PROMOS wahaha..

wabadabadoo...

2006-08-10T23:39:00.000+08:00

yabadabadoo...no more crappy skl just erm.. 2 more projects to go...yeap well 3 coz thanks to some spielberg in my class i cldn't export and all the comps were lk been used..freak la...but oh well.. im kindaf happy today...heh....waha.. i love u guys sooo much thank you for making my day again..heh..jul is not counted he lives to torture me...idiot..but yeah... whoot 10 party invites man..haha..im being booked... kk i shall plan my scheudle as follows:
Things i intend on doing

1) Play Badminton
2)Go ard sg to take photos
3)1 photo manipulation at least ..erm.. must be more than 12hrs work in it..
4)A webbie/blog design
5)poems
6)catch up on reading..whiny vampires!!
7)computer games
8)hang out wif ppl
9)movies!!!
10)shop
11)trip
13)Tv!!
14)Cycling
15)long walks
16)playground
17)sandcastle madness
18)do a bit of filming???-very optional must be the fun type
19)Go zoo and fulfil the bet---erm.. depends on an idiot
20)Airport!!
21)crazy sleepovers and stuff --if ppls premlins and etc.. will be over
22)sleeep!ok more like hiberante
23)Trip!
24)cip???
25)stone at home like an idiot
26)annoy the hell out of ppl-take tell to be cynical leh
27)stop being Cheenafiied*****
28)do something i normally wldnt do
29)PARTIES!!!!!

*** waah ppl say i very cheenafied nw ahh..think is fsv lars...waha...erm.. yeah must acquire back my normal sense and see if can switch back to my diginified english...later ash all think i mad...hehe....i act prefer the proper english at times unfort realised cant really use it in fsv so yeah....
better keep the intellect side to urself or ppl will give u work oh and aact blur..survivial tips frm an ex-fsv senior wahaha..thanks frend...

bored

2006-08-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

im starting to feel the elation, the freedom of being free and being the old me. Been re-evaluating stuff and i realised within the few mths of poly i kindaf grew up... is that a good thing or a bd thing i dunno...Though i miss the old me alot.. the idiotic sacastic bitch waha...but yeah i still get into trouble and at times i even relish it... its a nice feelinf u know...waha...well it depends la..sharon remember the stupid ah pek..crap la that old fart ended up being my teacher and i just insulted him a few mins ago.. u shld hv seem the shock on my face when i realised that he was the teacher... and noo i cldn;t be put into the same class wif the hot dude..waha.. anyway he sitll became my friend...gosh i miss all those times... somehe i think i know why they said poly will give you independence...is it a choice that i will regret? i sure hope not...though i have to prove myself coz sm ppl are not happy wif me goin there..sigh.. oh well...that part of life huh?

im starting to appreciate my class...i guess its a difficult change for me to accept.. i remembered running away frm them the first week la.. avoiding reality...i mean the people in SP were so much more normal and stuff..and the sudden change... hmmm... then decided no choice lets just live thru it..and hey not so bad..made a couple of good friends... but still there are times of unsurity that makes me seek the comfort of our friendships coz im soo used to you guys..unsure how to behave in case i say/do something wrong.. and you dunno how they will react..but yeah they're nice ppl...waha nw i scared change class...aside of trying to adapt all over again.. and after making friends wif ppl frm other class i scared leh..

...appearances can be deceiving....

Cant wait to be the idiocracy,bitchfied me waha...and comment like a smartalec abt everything again..The evil me shall reign again...muahahah..hope it hasnt mellowed out...waha speaking of which.. i wan my whiny vampire book!!act i think ure rite the appeal is wearing off on me..oh no...but its quite fun to make fun leh.. oh poor me my heart is wounded..wonder if i can trust anyone again.. my poor lonely heart..i saw here...bla bla bla..haha..but still it is nice i think heh.. its horror ok...not romance...

Oh i also wan my shopaholic books ahh.. need to catch up on all my reading. My brain is fizzling im gonn aend up like thin wif only 5 brain cells...

kyle is being an idiot as usual..remind me again y i put up wif him.. oh rite.. i know y..anyway my dear cuz of mine..i dun intend to die so young can...hmm...

And k despite the idiot u are.. keep smiling....the only face that suit you anyway.. waha..even my cuz u look better as a grouch but ignore that monkey..and ur happy dimpled face makes my day at times...

And jul u r such an idiot..dummy arse...can u dun exaggerate until like tat..idiot. die man die.. one day..one day... ill...argh!

Crap i realised that this blog can be found if the correct words are typed...crap!!!

untilted

2006-08-08T17:19:00.000+08:00

Come on boys and girls
i have a story to share

tis is not a bedtime story
this is the truth
and thus the gory

her name was sarah
and his name was jonah

it was love at first sight
and everything was bliss with no fights

They got married
and it was hurried

Months passed
and a child was born

It was all fine
till the son turned nine

He lost his job
turned to looting
Got caught by a cop
And ended up in a shooting

Twenty years later
there lies jonah
in an unamed tombstone
with ovengrown grass burying him into obscurity

This my children
is the end of the story

No happy ending
no fairy tale
just another man's tale

hmm... first try of poetry writing cum story....ok cant make it la... used to write better...ahh.... must go back to my W.o.W mode...i need help soon...but erm...very morbid..haha..well part of life...

happy

2006-08-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

its finally the day ive been waiting for..ok not really..tech im waiting for the 1st of sept lars..hmm..anyway yeah..no more crappy skl for a while nxt 3 weeks is slack wk...and only 3 more projects to go..whee! then no more dumb skl and its creepy filled nonsense..

yay im sooooo glad u called....i was so worried when u didnt tot like last time.. u love to scare my wits out of me dun you..tsk... u horrible midget thing...haha...wat an oxymoron that is...well everything will be ok..anyway u also hv to wait...

hmm...ashkins u like hv to keep up woman..dun stay in the happy lil dreamworld of urs forever lar.

oh i just realised i can get back to my reading...finally..hmm.. after goin to fsv ive not really had much intellectual stimulation.. i miss bantering like hell...waha...cant help it my argumentative side seems to rule over me..whee... law seems fun nw la...

anyway the good thing is that it stimlates some form of creativity i think..oh i can catch up with my graphi creations also.. sharon dun laugh but i might just create another website that will hopefully be done by x-mas wahhahah...yeah i know wat u're thinking and i think ure rite....heh... but mayben this time i will complete it....

i wanna watch alot of movies heh... click,lakehouse,poc2 god knows what else.....

im so bored and happy after sooo long i realsied school sucked the life out of me but will be more happier after all the projects are over.yeah... and nt having to talk to some idiots there mainly one but shall not bitch coz im happy...im so goin to hell la at this rate...heh JULIAN ill sure meet u there one la...u devil's spawn wat...
heh...idiot...i act miss whacking u...

hmm..ok thats it i guess
oh i still think that wren guy is bloody hot..haha dun pretend he is not la...u were practically drooling over him..but i think he is gay...coz all good looking men are either gay or married and i dun think its the latter.yeap!!:D

sick

2006-08-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

crap la...im still having fever but at least fever went down abit...yay! haha gosh i havnet studied yet...but everyone else or most ppl in m class are mugging for it..sighs... i cant concentrate...damn tired and drowsy....crap...haiz..

kyle..dun wry too much abt it..gosh hes such an arse..wish i could do something to erase the memory of the pains he caused...sigh..stop thinking abt it..hats the only adivce i can give u for now..take care dear....

poor max is sick i think..hes injured actually waah im damn sad....its wobbling ard with 3 legs..limping...sig..so sad to look at and its like giving me the sad face look..been slping the whole day..nv do anything stupid..sigh..i hope it gets well soon..ahh!!!

*stress stress*
1 more freakin day which is monday..ten hm skled then hols!!!yay..looking forward to it like hell...

ppl lets start making plans i wan my schedule to be full hehe..but whole of sept will be away pretty sure abt it....*grin*

Nearly ending...

2006-08-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

yeah its nearly ending..finally damn skl....left only 3 more projects and 2 tests then im done. Apparently there is gonna be some clas gathering but erm.. ill see first if i wanna go...crap la...ppls there starting to make me feel anti-social la...ill go M.I.A soon i think..sigh y man y..class is being sooo superficial and stuff...gosh i hate hypocrisy and its getting very difficult well tech i love my class but 2 ppl really irk me seriously...and i dunno very mixed feelings think with everything goin on i dunno wat to feel already.sigh!

gosh 1 week more only but i think im 4.9/5% dead and currently workin ard like a dead zombie...ihv not been slping for 3days in a row..my med has ran out god dammit it la..
im sooooo tired and exhautedboth emotionally and physically sigh...sux man...
i hope K'S all rite...dun scare me like that anymore..i was so worried god dammit..SIGH OK...NVM AHHH!

CRAP LA GOT SO MANY THINGS ON RITE NW...CANT TAKE IT AHHH!!! sm ppl not makin it easy also sigh....i need to rant soon...haha so be preparared if i call/msn u haha..

feeling lifeless and fallin sick..crap...got fever nw...

hopeless

2006-07-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

IM SLEEPLESS IN SG.... sigh...damn tired but cant seem to slp think becomin insomanic....gosh ahh.. im so frustrated feel like breakin everything...i think i will feel better after i do that... heh..but i intend on keepin my allowance so i guess not.... ahh! damn skl damn everything.. wait mostly DAmn skl!!!! i hate skl!!! argh! bloody stupid place.... damn everything.. damn life.. everything is just so screwed up rite now.. i know its 2 more wks but dunno if i will last...ahhh!..kill me now.. and yeah... grades in skl not goin well...sigh.. give up on me man.. y cant u just give up on me like the rest.... it makes my life so much easier but think the only reason i continue u on is the fact that knowing that u care...thanks man.. u make my day...sigh...but seriously think fsv is not my thing at times.. ive no clue wat im doin here... i wished i had direction of some sort... any?? a sign? gosh.. i mean i think i wanna do directing mainly for music vids and commericals but i dunno wat that comes under if not im doin law man.. LAW...but then...now wat do i do? ahh!!

i cant believe it la u like takin a yr break... i dun mind also.. but.......gosh.....i dunno... I GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM LACKIN SLP SO PARDON THIS.

ranty

2006-07-24T19:57:00.000+08:00

Sobs michael leaving today.. and i feel sooo sad... i almost cried today after skl after i read his gdbye msg..waha its damn sad.. sigh.. on the way home it was soo bad.. its like my life flashin back at me sortaf thing.. all those who left.. i felt lost and alone and very depressed...sigh... i think skl's stress is getting to me....

Crap im feelin emo again.. i miss my frends its so sad..gosh do i so miss those days ater the O's. All the crappin ard and watching dvds wif kim, hangin out wif sharon,insultin Lo and doin nonsencial stuff wif mic and the gang...lol....ill miss all of u guys...yeah yeah..as musy as this ay sound esp coming frm me...its the truth ok..u guys r the bestest nutcase friends ard..

I guess who dont realise what you have with you until it almost seems that its disappearing frm ur hands.

Schools not to bad..i think..yx frend thanks for listening to all my crap...ure a gd frend.. i think ill die in the class without rebecks or ur normality..i think ure normal..haha... wait ure not since u always seem to hv spastic moments...god knows y... anyway my dead wols midnight buddy u gotta get some slp..ure like some creature of the night...lurkin ard n forever stalkin me wahaha.....

Kim: lets go out after ur exams..i think mine is also in 2 wks time...so lets tahan...We can do it..gd luck ok buddy?

Sharon: gd luck for ur exmas also..whenever it is haaha..sry la i forgot..eh go ask cutie out b4 i grow old can..gosh.. haha.. we hv to go out soon...

Mic: ill miss you like crazy...sigh..hope to see u soon..maybe in 5 yrs time? gosh.. i ll miss u and lil mike take care guys.

verge of breakdown

2006-07-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

ok honestly i am on the verge of an emotional and mental breakdown. School is being a pain in the arse as usual.. well currently more than usual as the semester is ending son and they are trying to throw in as much junk as they can, so whatever i have to do work almost 24/7 and harldy hv any time left... michael is leaving y man y.... hw can u do this to me....no more french also? nt agai... not soemone else leaving ahhh i cant take it anymore...its like everyone is leaving.......!!!!!!!!! dun do this to me!!!!!!

Crap shoot me now and end my misery... kyle i cant wait for the hols any more...

pissed

2006-07-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

god..my nvp 3 is so screwd up.. its so screwed up till i dunno hw screwed up is screwed up la..argh! im bloody pissed.. supposed to shoot on tues then cancelled last min i founf out ard 1am wth..gosh... doenst it make u frustrated... then tot cast finally settled than last min screwed up again.. then locations to meet keep changing.. god knows y.. the freakin leader is damn blur.. nt makin any decisions... ahh1 maniacs.. *slaps myself with trout* wth did i quit SP seriosuly.. regret like shit at times like this.. some ppl there just piss me off like no end... ahhhhh! ok now i know y its jpase la... tsk.. sharon i shld hv just listened to u.. y didnt i maybe jc was more my thing.. go mj or tpjc or stick with SP think i wld hv been happier there at times.. but than ask **** also he said not that gd... kindaf sux but people there more normal la.. ok i need to vent.. just when i tot it was goin on well.. its always the same 3 people that piss me off.. ok mostly 2 only la the 3rd one is just plain weird.. like thshfhooscareyoojgddfgd man. Kill me now and end my agony... kyle gosh i need my remdy seriously i cant wait for the hols im like counting down everyday.. thank u for putting up with all my crap haha.. ash also i love u ash... haha.. i will never make it thru everyday witout ur nonsencial mails to cheer me up though u need to pick up ur phone more often woman... sigh!ahh!!1 goin mad... i shall go and cool off.... n pray for strength and guidance frm god to help me endure the next 2 shooting days... haha both me and becks hope to last....

commentary

2006-07-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

ok seriously ignore this entry unless u hv nuthing better to do wif your life... this is just gonna be some utterly nonsensical rambling....FEELING EMO.!
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seriously what the hell is wrong with the world now? Anyone ever realised that its getting more screwed up each day?Naturally and otherwise...
Natural disasters are increasing in number and in their power of their force.. god knows why.. its like we are feeling the wrath of mother nature .. is it possible that this is the much forseen apocalpsy? the slow depletion of human nature?
Its crazy to see people killing each other all over... why cant we just have peace huh? Hw hard is it to shut up and just put up with peoples nonsense..no people hv to go to the extend of murders,war and god knows what else..sigh... so much for loving thy neighbour...
Doesnt it just make you frustrated in listening to all this crap day in and out... Switch on the news is there ever a good thing on the news..hardly ever... its like the news revels in such violence and tradgies... guess morbity is becoming some form of business in the media...gory man

anyway during socpsy we were talkin abt gender discrimmination...gosh then they showed up three videos frm the opera show.;.gosh and it was soo horrible they were takina abt fgm,honor killing and acid attacks... my heart just went out to those people there and makes me thank god for what i have now... its like wtf is worng witht hose people kind of things.. i mean its like women are treated as property and at times the govt also supports them all because they are financially dependent.. of course la... u dun even let the gals study than hw can they work and learn to be independent .. dumb man...vicious cyle..nut cases.. i wonder if AWARE is aware of this.. gosh.. makes u wonder here we are int he egalatarian society that we fighting for stupid equality rites like voting,housing and stuff and yet we arent doin anything abt this kind of things..the worst thing is that they are being treated worst than animals...and i mean we are vocing out so much on animal rights but nuthing on this kind of torturous acts that they deem as part of culture resulting in deaths??... its like the salem witch trials ..history is repeating itself again... people are becoming animals.. its sad that we cant do much but just watch helplessly at times...Alas life is such a tragedy....only god knows whats installed for us next...

BOOK

2006-07-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

ok i wanna write a bk.Read the following conversation for more info...IM TOO Lazy to tye again....

i got content pg for my sad stoires collection volume 1

sharon says: (11:43:11 PM)
what is sotires?

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:43:14 PM)
sigh y does it always hv to me

sharon says: (11:43:16 PM)
ooh show me

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:43:18 PM)
*stories

sharon says: (11:43:19 PM)
satiees

sharon says: (11:43:21 PM)
oh

sharon says: (11:43:25 PM)
show me

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:43:46 PM)
1. The Mushroom Saga

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:44:11 PM)
2. Rammed by a Fry

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:44:31 PM)
3.Super Bunny

sharon says: (11:44:53 PM)
what is super bunny?

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:44:53 PM)
4.Good deed that went punished

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:45:02 PM)
super bunny the one la i tot the rabbit can fly

sharon says: (11:45:03 PM)
haha mugi! ur hilariois

sharon says: (11:45:08 PM)
hilarious

sharon says: (11:45:09 PM)
what?

sharon says: (11:45:12 PM)
no u never tell me

sharon says: (11:45:15 PM)
tell me now!

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:45:17 PM)
i did remember

sharon says: (11:45:22 PM)
OMG OMG

sharon says: (11:45:23 PM)
HAHA

sharon says: (11:45:38 PM)
wait u threw ur bunny out the window cuz u thought it could fly is it?

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:45:45 PM)
yaya dun remind me

sharon says: (11:45:49 PM)
HAHA OMG

sharon says: (11:45:51 PM)
OMG

sharon says: (11:46:05 PM)
i thought it was a hamster or guinea pig

sharon says: (11:46:11 PM)
mugi im hysterical now

sharon says: (11:46:19 PM)
haha ow my stomach so pain

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:46:37 PM)
5. Cant Stop dancing

sharon says: (11:46:47 PM)
huh what is that?

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:46:48 PM)
6. The Rojak Stall

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:46:58 PM)
i nv told u meh?

sharon says: (11:47:14 PM)
dont think so whats the dancing one

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:47:49 PM)
i didnt know they were washin the floor then i nicely walked into the soapy place

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:47:56 PM)
then its was damn slippery

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:48:17 PM)
then me tryin not to fall had to do all these weird dance movements that i nv need i cld do

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:48:23 PM)
the longest dance walk of my life

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:48:31 PM)
the corridor damn long la

sharon says: (11:48:45 PM)
HAHA OMG

sharon says: (11:48:48 PM)
where

sharon says: (11:48:53 PM)
mugi i cant breathe'

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:48:55 PM)
then i finally made it out of there without falling tot i safe

sharon says: (11:48:59 PM)
im laughing so hard

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:49:11 PM)
i fell down at the driest possible spot

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:49:17 PM)
where there was no excuse

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:49:20 PM)
for it

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:49:22 PM)
sad man

sharon says: (11:49:31 PM)
ow my stomach!

sharon says: (11:49:34 PM)
mugi!

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:49:34 PM)
i went thru all that for nuthing

sharon says: (11:49:39 PM)
ur so hilarious

sharon says: (11:49:44 PM)
haha gosh! where was it?

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:49:45 PM)
woman its damn sad la

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:49:54 PM)
my cuz's place there

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:50:06 PM)
its liek frm one end of the block to another

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:50:35 PM)
if only i had put up a sign and a can there i bet i wld hv gotten a lot of money

sharon says: (11:51:43 PM)
omg i just shrieked in laughter

sharon says: (11:51:46 PM)
MUGI

sharon says: (11:51:50 PM)
UR SO FUNNY

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:52:04 PM)
im not its the saddest day of my life

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:52:14 PM)
now i can nv show my face in bukit batok there la

sharon says: (11:52:20 PM)
HAHA

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:52:21 PM)
unless i wear a scarf or soemthing

sharon says: (11:52:24 PM)
owwwww

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:52:28 PM)
but then they will think i terrorirst

sharon says: (11:52:37 PM)
haha u got the face

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:52:39 PM)
then knowing my luck i will kenna arrested

sharon says: (11:52:44 PM)
yup

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:52:48 PM)
sigh y me man

sharon says: (11:52:53 PM)
haha i cant breathe

sharon says: (11:52:55 PM)
nooooo

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:53:02 PM)
u know wat i think MUGI shld be a species

sharon says: (11:53:11 PM)
i hope there are many more such moments to come

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:53:18 PM)
as in if these kind of situtatins happen to u than u r a mugi

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:53:23 PM)
i shld really write a bk

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:53:32 PM)
maybe will finally pay off

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:53:38 PM)
for goin thru all this crap

sharon says: (11:53:44 PM)
noooo stop my stomach nooooooooo

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:53:55 PM)
go n die la i dun wan these situatuon

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:54:06 PM)
its the saddest days of my lie

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:54:08 PM)
*life

sharon says: (11:54:11 PM)
then what will we laugh at

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:54:22 PM)
eh maybe i can direct my own soap opera

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:54:26 PM)
SADDEST DAYS OF MY LIFE

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:54:37 PM)
then compete wif the stupid DAYS of my LIfe

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:54:50 PM)
maybe i might get an oscar for it

sharon says: (11:55:13 PM)
mugi ur so freaking hilarious omg as in seriously

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:55:32 PM)
gosh u keep laughin at my agony

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:55:38 PM)
arse man u

sharon says: (11:56:16 PM)
mugi any normal person would laugh at this

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:56:26 PM)
nope

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:56:32 PM)
its sad u shld sympathise

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:56:48 PM)
at least kyle sympathises ok

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:56:51 PM)
thank god la

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:57:06 PM)
but then he very sacastic one

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:57:10 PM)
ahhh!

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:57:16 PM)
i live in a sad world

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:57:20 PM)
ure a sadist

sharon says: (11:57:39 PM)
what abt the listerine thing? u should add that in. "halfway u realised u were dying"

sharon says: (11:57:48 PM)
i thought u said he also laugh at u

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:57:50 PM)
oh yes

I used to have superpowers but my therapist took them away. says: (11:58:23 PM)
7. To drink or not to drink

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update

2006-07-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

ok ill start of by saying : HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINS! lin and thin waha..see im such a nice frend i wished u like 1 wk in advance la..yeah yeah i know u love me..waha..
Eh i havent seen yall like in forever man..wats this la...hw can it be and thin ur skl is gonna start soon... you were the smart ass who said that we shldn't let a stupid thing like school ruin our friendship of 11 yrs la...chya...

anyway...movin on..yay im gonna see the bum tom..after sooooooo long waha..but she nv lets me forget her face la wth..everday like tat i see her face on msn or soemhting... ha..and shes like teaching me how to swear int amil wth...so embarssing la...oh well haha...i was telling sharon this and we were laffing like crap..we hv switched ethinicty....ha..and she's keeping me in suspense with all her news...hw come HELP sounds so fun despite its name? waha....

Gosh..like sooo much to say...OH and i hate macs...as in apple macs..as in computers.. i hate mine anyway forever give me probs... paah..i dunno hw to use this crap..

Anyway looking fwd to the hols..cant wait...heh...guess wat im goin on a hols...haha.. i give up tryin to resist la...ash see its all ur fault.. waiting for ur phonecalls.. its like waiting for christmas...but yeah im goin waha..i know i know im hopeless..but haha whatever la...anyway we all hv common sense not to do anthing dumb...drinkin excluded...if i drink...

speakin of xmas.. i havent finish my purple gremlin is coming to town song..heh.. michael u hv to help me wif it man.. i cant find much words to rhyme..gremlins are such a nusiance words..waha...

Haha..woman go update ur blog..its like stagnant la..wth..waiting for u to update i die la..'

Max is being a nusiance again...bleh.. ate my cats homework...nw i hv to do it AGAIN!

Ta write more later....

dun wanna grow up

2006-07-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

Sigh i think im damn free now...i dun wanna do any work..nuthing..blank...

K.A.J.L :
i miss u guys sooo much u do realsie i keep writing abt yall....sigh u can see what i have been reduced to act...i miss the old itmes.. i miss the old me and if ear i have lost the old me forever..hope i can revive it back...sigh is this part of growing up?
coz if it is then i dun wanna... Peter PAn cm pick me up man..i dun wanna grow up...

gd thing: i saw smallville and charmed today...hot haha..tom welling is hot man.. i know u think jake is hoter but wadeva..haha...i think he shld be superman la...hes yet to be..coz he hasnt grown up...:D

killing me inside

2006-07-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

I swear sometimes life is just not worth the trouble..not worth living..sigh

It sux i tell u...everyday goin to skl and back hm pretending everything is ok when u know its not...tryin to laugh and keep the tots away frm ur mind...make sure u focus on class and not the freakin crap... dun give urself away.. too much trouble...

its killing me slowly to keep such a hugh thing as a secret well if i can leave with it for 10yrs or so ....i shld be able to continue to manage sigh....

conflict with identity another issue in all....maybe ive MPD...i hope or soemtimes not..but its possible...

bleh becomin a hypochondriac....

countin down to hols...whee pls let me get thru man seriously.. i duno how they did it but i hv to pullll thru i guess i hv to follow their footstpes all the time i hate it...dammit give me some space..y do i always hv to be like them and not myself huh?

Freakin crap...ive defied everything u told me..yeah suffered for it to0..still am... sigh but u drove me there......

LEave me alone
alone to bleed
let me bleed
and feel the pain
so that im know im sitll alive....

Wols

2006-07-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

like i promised this entry is gona be abt my wols frend.
She like my midnight wols buddy/woman..like in my hp also known as wols woman..
hm.. lets see ..nuthing much to say... i know
she is WOLS and in the dictionary u will see this
WOLS:her name here
haha the very embodiment...she always denys it but like accept the facts woman
oh speakin of dictionary a couplr of us came up with our own one.
ill rite more later coz i need to study for socpsy now..hehe..

rant rant rant

2006-07-05T20:04:00.000+08:00

Yello ppl....let long time no see...anyway let me get on wif my ranting...

hmm.. yay im glad u finally realised and listened to my advice and got a blog..but dun let J update it man..he feels it up wif craap....like why wld anyone wanna read abt his boring life..waha..no but seriously ego?gosh. Yeah i dun wanna see u get corrupted by him too..i like u the way u are thank u very much...

hmm.. this week gonna be bloody bz..sigh this weekend ic ant go out!!!!!!how sad is it man...bloody hell...i dun wan it to happend here la...why do we hv to be hosts dammit i wanna ditch it..sigh now hv to go find a trad suit..paah.. ill die wif all the fold,jewellery and shit things....bloody contacts hope i dun poke myself in the eye.. Need to go threading..a lets go together i forever get lost tryin to find that place.. haha and i can make fun of ur face coz always kenna swell near th eeyes..y man y..but its damn farni...chya....

Sigh m dreading the function like shit...its those saying hello to everyone and stand / long time during th prayers and then wait and smile smile and talk to dunno who..maybe i shall sneak out after tat..ahhh!!!maybe i switch wif me cuz... a wanna switch wif me rite now i will even go for tat 5 day wedding thing...wahah damn fun la... dancing..but then whos playing all the hindi songs huh? i wanna be the DJ.. and the food @ kalsa rox... and i know the only reason u go coz that ashwin will be there haha....dun deny it man.....

anyway let me update u abt the damn cat that was stalkin max...it act went to attack it la..then being heroic that im in trying to resue my dog i kenna scratched like shit sigh..my poor leg...paah now it looks like crap and hurts like shit..went ot see the doc and get a jab.. u see i seem to always be gettign into situations that require me to the very thing that i abhor..injections!!!argh! my poor leg...:(

Why do such things happen to me?sigh poor me..this is called learned helplessness in my socpsy shit..wow mr boey will be sooooo prd of me since i can apply it..

ahah..today was damn farni la...i swear everytime the train rides with rebecca is crazy...she was laughin like a manic till the woman in pink got so scared she moved to the other side haha...Oh and we passed the geek in the pink with our drinks..
hehe! act shes cool la...i shall discard my primacy effect of her.. its only her lateness and sometimes she doesnt realise what she says..bluntness chya..but other than then shes cool waha i think coz like its the catholic/christian skl thing.. waha... the bimbo thing nonsense is really nutz la... this is why i shld nv do projects wif her or there must be someone else in the grp coz both of us nv seem to get down to doin work (or shes very late but shes imprivign after 20 thousand reminders) coz we keep laughin abt god knows wat..haha...seriously la..all nonsense..wahah..totally..like..bimbo...waha...

Yay!my class politcs wadever thing is goin smoothly.. or more likely coz i cant be bothered that much anymore....hehe! Im so used to it already...roughly know how must split up so that later there will be no shit..unless teacher grp us..chya..so everythings goin cool...

whee!gd rite?this is cognitive dissonance that is to reduce tension we adjust our attitude to suit our actions..haha omg i act remember and can apply thank u god and michael for helpin me get the damn thing..

anyway i shall dedicate the nxt entry to my dear wols woman buddy..haha

jadded

2006-07-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

bleh! Ash! save me man save me...i miss u sooooo much...and i need u to save me soon.. sigh ure lucky ur not here man...one more yr...i shall try and convince them then maybe...cheers!

#@$TS!!#XXX#RF

2006-07-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

i feel #W%W$!XF. Sigh i swear everytime im happy and high i can always count on someone to bring me down. Thanks alot!

argh! y man y.... seriously counting down to the hols...freedom frm the crappy place.
sigh! its becomin a fucked up trend la..i dun like it...i wanna go back to sec skl.. i was much saner and happier than wait ..scratch that i was much insaner and happier there... even if i go abt cursing the damn place..haha.. miss all those days..but u can count on the teachers and peeps to like liven ur day..

here is like goin to a furneral la...or entering doomsday... hate entering it...sigh!

i cant believe i screwed up my life for this...and now im in a screwed up situtation..
sometimes makin ur own choices...theres a price to pay.. if i cld i wld take it back.. anything to get away frm this situation...sigh...

at the rate im gonna get into depression and i think i shld start lookin at my options again...will it be the same if i go overseas or change course prob...coz its me... lucky-screwedup me.sigh..think gonna get depression soon.

Great my frend is like totally ignoring me now...paah!

thus summary:hate skl... hate life..waiting for hols..might be goin into depression soon.Cheers!

Beaming

2006-07-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

yay!im sooooo happy....

Sharon or ash or anyone seriously... one of u gotta slap and help me get out of this..infatuation thing..omg
im like really getting really erm... u know getting it bad...sigh...falling for him big time la...and i cant believe he gave me the sweetest surprise that day..sigh..god i can almost love him for that...haha i said almost only dun think anything else man..

sharon i think im gonna be as bad as u are with cutie la...paah!

Golly i need to gush soon..hehe!

Whee!

Headlines:Snow white has just been poisoned by eating a Char Siew pau aha...got apple?

lol..that wld be the asian version of snow white haha...or maybe curry aha..got im super high

Our heart and minds are not with us anymore...speakin of which i wanna go backpacking after poly thats in 3 yrs time...anyone wanna come along? Like so South africa or europe...

Went to see just my luck yesterday...its cute..haha usual teenage fluff..but i think its farni like hello how lucky can anyone be man?its so farni and all because of a kiss...hmm....i tot the mouth to mouth thing was farni or and the we are the mud people..

a u are so the mud woman la..ur idea of superpowers is erm.. not applicable la..ice and fire like hello? u wanna make water is it?tsk

maybe i can promote u to...clay?or play doh haha..god im losing my mind..or wait already lost it..hehe!

vat la

2006-06-29T19:08:00.000+08:00

haiz..sad day man..im sick..yeah poor me god knows wth did i do i injured my poor back theres this huge blue-black thing there..omg and it hurts like crap...paah i dun wan go hosiptal again *pouts* stuipd ass doc will give me jab one..the damn idiot likes to give me jabs god knows y..i hate docs and nurses they r like mosquitos forever wanna take my blood wan..sigh..im gonna be anameic like at this rate...wahha..stupid bloody suckin vampire mosquito like ppls...ok maybe not all of them....but still..i dun like them...sigh oh and dentists too esp the ones at sac la the meanies i only liked the one in pri skl coz she used to give me the sticker waha...that was like ancient time ago..like p3?

paah too tired to type anything..being in class in damn tiring...bloody politics shit.. ok not really politics more like tryin to make peace...i shld be awarded a nobel prize for this la...sigh...its like india pakistan border conflict....

sigh lets give u a slight insight act this is really meant for 3 ppl only coz they prob be the only ones who get it.

A dun like B,D and makes it damn obvious esp for B.
A is unsure abt C.
C dun really like A coz A not exactly the kindest/sensitive person in the world.
(C is a nice person)
Then again A doesnt like alot of ppl.. i think...
Then E dun like D and B also.
I dun really ike b too but not too bad i mean u know me la...i love the world...even the grass.i try and be accomadating but A can be frustrating at times..like a complex thing like....strawberry yogurt....sweet n sour...damn confusing...no one proper taste...
Then i think F dun really like A as well.

Ah tats it further than tat i will also get lost...and u will too..so yeah this is sortaf the tip of the iceberg and guess wat its called a class..and we hv to work with this ppl like it or not...but some ppl just cant co-operate and me and C being the nice ppl that we r tryin to make peace here..tell u its very tiring and draining. paah!me loosing all me cheeriness.. i guess not to judge a bk by its cover...

sigh it was so nice nad happy the first few wks..all happy and got along hen cracks atrted showing and facades all broken...sigh even if they were facades for some that is.. i wld hv rather they stuck with it...sometimes the true selves doesnt really help....paah!

Paah to the C person...Waha i know wat it feels like and it sux..but chya..hopefully we will be alive till then...waha..yupz...luv luv

wahaha rite back to trees...hmm.. i saw like a nice tree today on my way.. shall take a pic of it later

Paaah sat im stuck home with psycotic max..how sad it tat...stuck home alone with max or all...tsk....

Dont walk away and pretend that everything is all right and that you are ok....Coz i know you're not.....

Bleh...ouch freakin back.....and waha Dave is such a bimbo... he sounded so gay today

And Mikey thank u for brightening up my day... and kyle for erm... everything else.. i rather not mention...later i get 2 many questions...coz sm ppl hv sharp memory that one day im gonna fig out how to get ard it....heh heh hehe!

Oh and jeremy is sooo farni.. i didnt know he cld even speak la...tsk..ash he and juls are made for each other... wat say u juls... wanna start dating guys...?

but i doubt lind will let u do that..haha..i spare u for her...lind u go girl! Kill juls for me....:D

peace man!

happy

2006-06-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

whee im so happy.no idea why but i just akm.. i swear i got to be the most extreme modd swinging person like chya....waha....i was so depressed yesterday then now im sooooo happy like yay!so ive nothing to write coz i dun wanna waste my time writing hahaha...

Omg i got so many things to tell yall think i shall call yall haha this is too fun..

pissed

2006-06-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

seriously y do u do this to me?i dun get it? i mean just tell me to piss off if u dun wan me ard can?this stupid thing is like a game is it? i totally dun get u... i mean one moment like ure all nice then the nxt ure mad at me or something?
angry at me just tell me man...dun reply my sms somemore wtf... then when i ask u wats wrong whether u say its me u say no....but ur face says otherwise ...seriously i dunno whats ur prob...dammit guy why...dun ruin the fun for me can.. im depressed enuf...im takin these classes for a reason u know....dumbass..cant stand ppl like this

oh just great o that i felt any better just now but im def feeling worse now...dammit!

Fiddlesticks

2006-06-27T20:57:00.000+08:00

Sigh my blog entries are just getting more and more depressing....ive no idea why yall even read it man..seriously...

Bleach! If i dun see any of u guys soon im gonna go insane...seriously i nv knew sac will hv such a huge impact on me.. i guess 10 yrs sort of rubs onto you.

Ash darling im seriously gonna consider yor offer now...Well i have to see a yr first...but the requirements seem so high..but maybe i might be able to make it....

Sigh skl seems to get more and more dreadful..i cant seem to fit in la...bloody hell.. im out of sync with my class but wth..i cant be bothered anymore....irk! esp cant stand it if ppl speak their MT when im there la like wtf hello theres a reason why there is no more chinese skls,malay skls etc... english was made for a frakin reason to not hv a commuication barrier i guess some ppl dun get it...like how will u like it if i started speakin french or tamil or hindi or my lil known malay huh? paah!thank god for some nice ppl for translating.....but like even in sac dun hv that much la...act hardly waha..co ur chinese so rox..but ..

argh!i think im being an annoying bitch now la...think its the jab...but like this nv happened to me before like i mean u guys dun do this wat..hmm guess ppl here r diff la...

i cant adjust i dunno why... coming to skl everyday...its like facing a new day of skl everyday..u know wats the worst thing there is an odd no in my class...guess whos the odd wan?me! think it wld be better if i quit la...but i cant i wont...i must give up i have to kepp tellin myself that.....

i shall keep more to myself nxt time anyway i do but i shall shut up more and cut off myself i guess...seems 2 be the only way..coz apparently everything i do or say is gonna be wrong or soemthing...

sigh why do i feel so lost? ive lost my farni happy go lucky side....i hardly know anyone la...i cant stand it coz like im a social being u know so i count down everyday till the end of lessons so i can get out of the depressing place..where everyone fits in hv their own frends watever.....act i think its very superficially most it...yall sayin that i need more time but how long... try feeling emotionally and physically lost frm everything and everyone u know la...sigh

I mean one moment like i feel ah there is finally like some form of normal connection then bang wham and dang its like wtf now?Sigh not gonna understand ppl la...I totally agree with Bks with what the person said that day.

I dun even feel like goin home most of these days...currently im feelin down so wtf.. leave me alone la...like not enuf shit then skl seriously is takin its toll on me...and i think erm.. that the B r like frakin biased but shall not elaborate la...

Kim i cant believe im writing u in every entry like tat now la..but like chya i miss u like shit.... i know i said i nv will but wah surprise surprise i do.... u like one of the bestest frend i ever had and will hv.....woman i need to see ur face and make an insult or 2 and u need to tell me ur super lame jokes again..till i get so cold that i freeze waha.. i miss french lessons crappin too.i saw her tat day u know and she was like hello then say y nv take french lessons then i was like no time maybe dome time soon during our hols...haha i dun mind but i doubt thers time la...sigh so wish we can go back in time....

This is goin to be the longest entry ever la...

K i so miss u already....wah at least i cld bitch to u then and listen to all ur advice which makes sense at times..ok most of the time..but..yeah.. i need a shoulder to cry on...soon...
Ash u too...god i miss u sooooooooo much b*tch waha...if i dun last this yr then see u in aussie man.. im gonna move in with u one way or another...even if my parents end up disowning me which i doubt...but its always a possibility...waha.. see how happy my life is?

The only gd thing is that i found out tat i hv till 21 to be on my stupid med like yeah man finally then i can be back to normal watever that means...thats like 3 yrs there goes all hope of social life..and i know one person will be reallly really happy to hear that now and its not ash.haha start counting...

Pah i shall stop complaining i shld coz there r def ppl worse out ,there. i shld start getting involved in CIP again...then maybe i can feel that i am contributing soemthing to this world..my part..:D..maybe can try spca again or something..ok well i got at least one thing down for the hols...CIP...

Thanks Ash,Kyle,Mic,Dav for all ur mails and love man.. i cant go thru this shit without u guys and make me feel better i doubt i wld even hv gotten thru one day without yall mails,calls or otherwise..though it wld be better if some of yall were here...love u guys soooooooooooo much

kim (ur nonsensical chats i still need to call u rite?) too.

Luv luv everyone

BLEH!

2006-06-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

bleh!skl started again..sigh sux i tell u ..actually no diff since the stupid break wasnt really a break like wtf sigh went skl like almost everyday and even weekens had to meet up to do freakin projects...

kim im so glad i chatted wif u that day...sobs i miss u anyway...im like forgetting ur face woman...we shall meet soon...and like we shall see how the yr goes huh?if not...

bleh seriously i dread goin to skl every single day y man y i dun like it...waah... anyway hope i can atleast pass the modules lalike i feel so dumb ppl in my class r like so smart...wtf am i doin here..shld hv gone law or soemthing...

anyway i will try ND GIVE IT A CHANCE..hv to anyway...pls god let me pass ..weell if u can also...esp loc pro and audio tech i can manage the rest...i think..

good god countign down to the hols aready august 28th..surprisigly is los birthdae wth ..coincidence? i think not.....

still havent gotten my spongebob and watch shes the man llike wth hv no life outside skl anymore...

michael dear...french is totally gone out of me u hv to help me mug for the exam at the rate im goin...entrace exam ssux....

paah....life sux...well gotta live wif it anyway.. ><
--

Healing scars

2006-06-23T20:34:00.000+08:00

How do you heal if the scars and pain is on the inside?
What can be my medication?
What will help me heal?
You say it will be you ... dare i take a chance and belive in you?
Will you let me down like others have?
What shall i do now?
Everything is so new
Youre like a new begninning and i know that i should take a chance
i have to..
but ive been let down and hurt too many times to try now.
All hope is lost but....
maybe you will be my new light
shinning brightly
into the darkness that im lost in
help me find my way...
back into the light
save me for i need you now
more than ever
though i may not show
though i may not say
but the unspoken pain
the unseen scars
is calling out to you
Can you listen?
Will you try?
DAre i take a chance?
Will it be you?

blog

2006-06-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

mood:emo
Mind whacked
Song :Saving me by nickleback

Writting all this crap makes me feel better..no idea why but it does some weird therapy...along with poetry...the beach is where im off to now..need to seek solitude and when i get there ill see selena and then ill be better. 'i never talked to her before as weird as it sounds yet her presence is soothingly something i need rite now.

They are never happy i know it will never meant to be but i wish i was given a start again but i know i can never turn back time and i lost the chance to prove myself.
I have already failed in their eyes i never meant to but i did yet surprising i hope that since it is and has been my decision i will go thru it just hoping that there is always a reason why things happen and perhaps there is one fo this.

To be able to embrace that fact has made me understand what she meant and i thank her for it.The path i have taken may be lonely but either way i made the choice and i will forever have him by my side.Amen.

God i need to go to church real bad.
6 more mths to go for all this to end ...pls let me last till then..so the question is will the misery end?

sad

2006-06-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

SHE CRIES BECAUSE CRYING SILENTLY IS NO LONGER POSSIBLE so much so that
La mort semble comme une bonne option maintenant.

Losing Control

2006-06-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

I feel so depressed.Waah!Thank god for comfort food and a good old storybook. Managed to hit the bookstore today after school and i got my bk.yay but i still feel depressed. Im gonna hunt down my Spongebob and eat comfort food hope the blues go away. Sigh just one of the things that when you get too deep and cant get out.......paah all these nonsense it making me lose my cool along with bloody school like not enough crap to go thru already.Argh skl!how do i detest thee!
Dear god why do you do this to me?you can like end my miserable life you know and make all this go away...

je parie même si j'essayais de me tuer que cela ne fonctionnera pas pas que je . Si 2 accidents de voiture, drownings, presque kenna frappaient vers le bas par soo de véhicules beaucoup de fois que j'ai même perdu le compte et que le didnt stupide de maladie me tuent je ne savez pas ce qui . sIgh though death seems like a good option now...im not sucidial paah but all this crap is goin to drive me soon i tell u sigh sigh wahah im goin to go for theraphy or take up mediating class...pref the latter.

on a brighter note....wahaha ive none im gonna go nuts soon.....oh wait i got my bk?

Ashkins... i need u woman..better not ditch me or ill haunt u for life..haha not really but i appreciated ur call tht day though it lasted for only abt 10mins..damn y do u hv to be at aussie woman y not malaysia huh?then i can still hv a chnce to pop in and crash at ur house.......waah i miss those times crahsing at ur place...

omg i swear my blog is full of pass memories wtf am i turning to...an emotional basket case...waaah..spongebob i need u.....
i gotta stay storng well at least till the end of this yr hopefully...my god i swear that je devrais avoir pris le sentir de law.i si pathétique dans ma droite now.imagine de cours toping la classe plus du temps et devenant réduite à une pulpe comme un perdant. Je ne peux pas la prendre que je verrai désormais qu'une plus d'année si pas peut-être je quit?no de bidon je ne peux pas je ne me donnera pas vers le haut ne suis pas un renonceur.

oh well think i shall go church and pray.Man now i know why i was n a catholic skl coz i act went to the chapel there when i wanted...sigh....LOSING CONTROL!....

Randomness

2006-06-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

wahaha i wanna quote wat thin said: we shld not let a stupid thing such as skl ruing our friendship of 9 yrs"- technically i know u 10 yrs man...i know ,lin 10 yrs wat so its like the same coz ur twins wahaha..i know u love me...

Julian im gonna kill u...u are driving me mad...stop corrupting kyle.......omg u suck...and u always pick the wrong time to call.....
Im so gonna kill you... you r lucky lindy is there to protect u now...hmm... but wait till i tell her wat a pain u are and what she has gotten herself into..wahaha

Omg guess where i went today?other than skl i act went to Boat Quay there... well the esplanade more like it. I cant believe i wen there again after u left...and u know what there were like people @ our spot act eating..see i told you and you made me wait sooooooo long for supper.tsk!

Anyway i took nice shots i shall post it here soon once i fig how to wahaha...well i did...so dun laugh...

Also stop callin me in the daytime...im at skl...yeah just to let you know...even if its during my break its damn diff to talk...u know y...

And you better stop all that nonsense with Juls i tell you..if not i will make you go cold turkey..till u cm begging...im serious and give me back the pics...

moving on....skl was not tat bad.....usual it sux but yeah... i still hate skl...someone rescue me...omg i hate audiotech y man y ...i shld start mugging but thers nuthing ot mug since its pracs...this is worse than sci pracs in Os...kim ying ill dissect a frog rite now...though i wld rather kill an antt............cant wait for nxt sem...sigh pls god help me get thru this....

I still havent found my toy....kyle this is all ur fault....:( Thanks to you i i didnt get to go coz......now its like out of stock sigh

poor spongey i found a name for it..or is pinky nicer?but if i hv pinky then i need to name one brain aslo..but i dun really like tat name..hmm....wait scape pinky since nw one of my classmate is named that..wahha..

oh i lost a bet wif my frend....my nonsensical frend the one that always bullys me..wahha she is soo gonna kill me for this.....anyway erm.. ya so like u unfortunately(wahaha im gonna die rite?) hv to meet her the nxt time u cm here... uh huh.. but its like on ur birthday rite?hmm....

Ash honey i miss you....can u like call me woman... my god u cant abandon a friendship of more than 10 yrs for a guy u know..tsk....adamn spare her a while for me can.....and u can so ditch the idea that u had....though i wish it was true....the 2nd one.. though i dun mind the first one either if everything works out :P wahha...omg i can tbelieve i said that oh well...im damn high again..i think its a ritualistic nightly thing.......

I shall end now......

YOu know you love me:D

Slurr...

2006-06-20T00:51:00.000+08:00

its a brand new day.Well 47 mins since the new day has started so u'hv guessed it that i am awake at an ungodly hour of 12 something am...sigh! seriously ive no life.. well i had a life but it kidnaf flew away like at 11.30 wahaha..moving i bet only 3 people know what im talkin abt but yeah...

oh guess wat i cldnt keep my resolution sharon!!! i failed terribly so i was drunk and bloody high wahaha said things i wldnt hv said under normal circumstances...now hes like gonna keep remidning me of it i bet j even has it on tap.eAsh u gotta help me with this situation i cant deal it no way man..maybe u can bribe him or something...:D

Yeah well yesterday and the day b4 that was super fun.Sentosa rox!wahah bloody expnesive unless u hv the isalander card..lo thnk u for mentioning it man...Yup but we didnt like go on any of the attractions really we just sat outside the hugge room near the beach and set up the tent at night like manics and were jsut wasting away talking and stuff. Then the fools decided to strum theri gutiar and sing a song which was like sooo nice...i shld hv recorded it my god he has such a sexy voice ahah.Shit im falling for him arent i this is so not happenining not now...sharon if i keep goin on like this pls feel free to scream at me and slap me so that i will remember my promise wahaha.

I still think michael rox...yeah man go vamps...hes like totally hot im gonna hutn down his poster...i shall try and revive my sardonic self soon b4 i lose myself in poly lie but hey tryin to get used to it..man im slow but man its taking me too long and im bloody pissed with myself

wem.. anyway back to sentosa yeah talking and stuff oh we played spin the bottle and truth or dare and some weird fear factor thing which i didnt participate due to having prior tests runs of the game...i knew what might happen so id dint and thank god for that...i shall nto mention but yeah i am sooo glad that i dint play.. i hate truth or dare let me state that i shall nv play that game unless im forced to which is like most of the time.. i still remember when i play with Lo i always kenna damn personal questions la...shes damn gd so nv play wif her wahaha

Erm.. kimmy we hv to go out ok..best buddy..Sp is like not so far awya u know.....

Today not really fun had to go back to skl to finish crappy shoot which was finally ovdee my god i nv tot it will end...but yay! then wanted to do socpsy but was getting so late then i kindaf like ditched well not really but nobody act wanted to do.. hmm.. dunnow at im gonna do abt it

then later went to meet him he got me this nice ring with engravings like wth ihve no idea what to do wif it...its like so.....i dunno help me out here ash... Thigns always get messed up when he coems doenst it...wahaha

Well im gonna end too tired...Omg i kidnaf miss having the nut cases ard i cant believe it withdrawl symptoms omg!!!

yup ash when u see me pls slap me i seriously am in need of it..:D
weell cheers

Nostalgia

2006-06-19T19:35:00.000+08:00

Guys i miss you all sooo much..wahaha i cant believe im saying it but its ture..we soo have to meet up sometime soon and tulip u still owe me ur bet so the next time i see u we r sooo goin ot the zoo.wahaha i dun care u lot the bet and the grad nite thing is all wrong its not what u think...uh huh not forgetting chester...
Moving on kim we need to catch up on movies and dvds also...so doing our semester break u are so coming over and we r goin to watch movies continuoulsy.. i sill think michael is hot wahhaa...im addicted to the movie sia...sigh!i wanna buy his poster anyway...
yup been so busy...we hardly had time to catch up we hv to ok?i dun wan ask to drift apart. doesnt mean we we dun see each other often then we will forget each other...remember that distance makes ur heart grow fonder.yup:D...stay true to yourselves peeps.
Love me as i love yall
wahah bye
mugi rox.
peace

Depressed

2006-06-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

Woah i realised that i havent updated the blog like what seems forever...sigh been really busy the time...havent had a break till yesterday....Tml my bz schedule will start again so the only time i have to update is now...let me tell you whatever has happened so far....

Kyles is town..leaving tom..been here 2 weeks and it has been a emotional rollercoaster ride...been fighting..sigh! why man y?

Anyway im starting to feel more comfortable with my class yay!Bloody hell im pissed with myself that im taking so long to adjust to the new enivronment and people and all....sigh... seems to be only me in my class who feels this way (?) i dunno.....

Waah i scrwed up my audiotech pracs i still cant get over it i think i got the lowest bloody blow to my ego or whatever it is... the worst thign is that i did practise and i know it its just at the moment i freaked out was all panicky and i screwed it up..sigh! need to try and make up wif the other pracs..other than that everything is kindaf fine....

to be continued........

Lost and confused

2006-05-21T15:33:00.000+08:00

Now i have to worry abt defamation as well along with plagarism and god knows what else.....so much for the freedom to express yourself....anyway got lots of projects to do....im up to my neck..cant wait to get them over and done with...seriously...
The only class i seem to be enjoying so far is art and cats....i dun realy mind socpsy kindaf interesting the rest are ok the worst is audio tech since im freakin lost..hv to catch up as havent started reading the books and it a whole freakin stack of notess to read..argh!goin insane....i wanted to study now but cant seem to concentrate..why man why...

i cant believe it but i miss sac alot..a lot more than i would like and would hve believed that i would....hmm...guess coz i spent more than 1/2 my life there.........waah..anyway need to go there soon and collect my cert...tulip,kim and others when shall we go and collect it?msg me ok....

tuTu i think u're rite i need a tag board here...shall get one like soon...

Sharon we shld go out sooon....better make time man...oh and tutu also...dont forget ur bet..we shll go to the zoo the next time....to fulfill ur bet.....twineys we shld go chomp chomp we still hvnt gone there.....sigh...i wan my butter fish...waah!or is that at fisherman's village...wahaha i hv no clue....

i have to start studying soon...i cant believe i have an art test coming up....hopefully my almost non existant artisic capabliltes will decide to show themselves there.

Crap just realise that i cant go out on sat as it will be spent it skl for some SYMC (SINGAPORE YOUTH MEDIA CONFERENCE). wahaha i hope its just soem speech thingy i will die if got work to do....coz i hardly keep up with th media scene here haha..all foriegn stuff....im such a loyal citizen...lol

Well i gtg and study got a tiring day tom till 8pm in skl....thats 12 hrs in skl.....his week is gonna be packed:(....projects and stuff....got filming on tues...a ghost story....1 min clip......

Got a human documentary to do as well....anyone wanna be the cast?msg me...

Anyone also going for the youth gone wild concert....msg me for tickets and details....local bands such as ronin,west side boulavard will be performing....Come and support them......

Kyle....you can forget abt calling me at 1am everydayy now...im way too beat to stay awake....sry.....msg me though:)

Luv luv

2006-05-14T19:19:00.000+08:00

Anyway think ill update u ppl on whats goin on..mainly kim and kyle since these ppl seem to pester me whenever i dun update...sigh!the things i do for you ppl.lol!
oh yeah like i already told yall my wonderful class celebrated my birthday at macs.It was so nice of them..but yeah well...they wld hv still been wonderful whether hey celebrated it or not..i am starting to get settled in..though i still hate the travelling..since but there are possible sane ppl i might be able to travel home with...
oh yeaah we went ecp under my hosting and guess how screwed up that was...lol I'm so not a gd host la...acutally not a gd organiser haha....i fig they learnt that...i was so blur and i think too preoccupied with max...poor nick he didnt get to do a photo shoot of max..haha!
i hv given up on sharon that girl is not updating her blog..cant blame her..jc student rite..sure no time one..sad life...haha..
well work is starting to pile up but slwly i finished my 1000word soc psy report..im so proud of me...hehe!i was so displined..but i think there might be more essays to come..sigh*grumble*grumble*
i also realised that i will never be a gd camera person i can only be a director/superviosr type haha..or the intellectual type.. sigh!dunno wth im doing at fsv now haha!well maybe after i can practice i might become gd...hopefully...mr vj had to help me with it and i can tell that my work was pathetic im gonna die for the prac work...argh!gotta practice like hell la...hmm..gd luck to me man!
well kyle thanks for the present i love it i also miss ur stupid patient tolerance of trying to advise me..luv luv...
oh i learnt anew chinese word 2 words acutally but i put them together its called chim cham..o fun say that fast 3 times....

Cynic 2

2006-05-03T20:29:00.000+08:00

STOP!DONT READ THIS if u havent read the previous post this is the continued version of my ramblings....

yup...oh tulip still has to fulfill her bet...i will be waiting ah tulip...haha!u lost not me.....

talking abt skl....yeah 2nd week is a little better i kindaf like it people there are nicer..and i acutally bother to talk ahaha...instead of being the devil's spawn...se sharon im not the spawn...bet its some psycotic who is goin to be born on 6/6/06 haha...sounds interestig..wondering who...diun even know i thst true...but hey makes a gd story...

cant wait for the projects to start and the skl letting us use their cool equipment..its like temptation r us man..all the latest equip stuff there ans all we can do is see them and not really use them till later on...argh!!!!
write more later comp batt dyig..laptops r so unreliable man!!!

Cynic

2006-05-03T19:55:00.000+08:00

And they wonder why im cynicial....argh!frustrating! frustrating! i have class tom till 8pm and its my birthday...argh!why man why!I was finally hopin to enjoy my birthday for once since its away from the mid-yr exam period that i had to go thru almost all of my life....this is so bloody annoying.....i had plans man!plans!A freakin social life that i intended on keeping, away frm skl and pursue after Os.

Anyway i wanted ot go out with Kim ying and michael tom...haiz...looks like i have to stay in school la if my skl ends at 3 no pt i go out also...this is so freakin depressing!sad sad!

ok enough of my mopping ard here...lets review back havent update since skl started...

Let's see....hmm.....

Orientation was ok this was on the 21st april so i dun think i can remember the exact details by now...erm..i got to know that i was in t1a1 or is it a1t1 haha..no idea something like that la...then had to go for some cca thing that i only scoutted ard didnt see much was starting to feel since then in the end became sick so monday the first day of skl 24/4 i didnt go..seems to be some record for me....everyyr first day of skl kenna sick..haiz....i think im jjinxed la...one min fine then next so serious till had to go hospital...wahaha..that sucks.....

first week of skl ok, still getting lost, thank god for signs..skl's cool though i wish i knew more ppl there i know like only a handfew outside my class...y man y...see ppl u shld hv some to my skl......its being dominated by the west(aside frm the fact that its in the west)
i still miss sec skl...nostalgia is overwhelming at times....i mean in sec skl turn ard u sure will see a friend u know..here like unknown..no sharon to disturb,no kim to irritate,no twins to kenna bullied by.....

i also miss times to tamil class @ bvss while we lepak at the coffee shops and then go late and always discuss on what stupid excuse to give and in the end never follow and the unlucky idiot to always being called up for the reason is me or jai....i dun miss the class just the ties while we make our way there...oh not forgetting ccas...it was fun...
....waah i sound so homesick and pathetically clingy and old...i should be doin this in 10 yrs time or 9 acutally not so fast....havent even one yr yet...haixz...and i didnt even think i will miss skl..haha....waah the teachers there sure know us welll....lke mrs cheong always callin on tulip coz she damn blur or abs for doin god knows wat....or lo supplying food to the class.i miss lit and goin thru shakespear's rubbish...well it used to be rubbish till it made sense now...i even remember some quotes...some achieve greatness..and some have greatness thrust upon them..haha lo's and my fav quote...although lo thinks of it as in a more sexualy annoating way....
SPeaking of the devil,i was talkin to lo that day and then she introed andrew in the con..but thats another story...anyway i was tellin her abt mic...and told her thaT I MET HIM IN FRENCH...and she tot the class was abt frenching...like wtf..frenching? i bet she wld hv been the first to sign up la..but i dun think anyone needs a lessons for that haha....esp not us..haha...

Kim ying loves Mugi

2006-04-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

Kim ying just has declared her love for me.haha...joking la... sortaf true anyway since she said that she's gonna miss me...a lot....alot....yup..its true...but i mean who can blame her...im so loveable...haha....:D

Word Of the Day

2006-04-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

Chrysalis
1. A pupa, especially of a moth or butterfly, enclosed in a firm case or cocoon.
2. A protected stage of development.

[From Latin chrysallis, from Greek.]

"The climax of metamorphosis into an adult can be viewed almost daily.
Butterflies usually emerge from their chrysalises sometime between 9:30
a.m. and 11:30 a.m."

HeartBreak

2006-03-30T19:18:00.000+08:00

Well its just another f***ed up day in my really screqed up life.sigh!

Well the only highlight is that i went and watched Ice age 2.Scrat was really adorable by showing a lot of determination to go after a nut...i think its the same miserable nut frm the first movie.
SId was also really funny with his fire king and uttering gibberish stuff and annoying people like kim.lol!
Diego was the one that i cld relate to since we both r afraid of water.:D

Well other then day the day preety much sux...got a call frm ngee ann stating that they now want me for FSV... like they cld finally see my talent i bet its like only because got vacancies.God its a gd rep skl for FSM and the studios god im in love with them..but its freakin far away...and i feel insulted as though as im a last result....the guy was like u're enroled in a skl?Well duh! You cant expect me to hang around and wait for ur freakin call rite.....i have a life you know got dammit. argh! im so freakin frustrated that ive no idea what to do.....i mean it wld hv been better that if they didnt call since i was resigning to the fact that im now a SP student and now this..... Why god? why do you do this to me?I have no idea what to do ?What do you want me to do man?

Like thats not enough...Kyle's in the hospital and ive no way to visit him or talk to him or do anything at all.I just hope he gets better soon.

Someone just shoot me and end my miserable life now!>>.....

Quote

2006-03-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler.

Quiz Mania

2006-03-28T17:16:00.000+08:00

You Have Your PhD in Men

You understand men almost better than anyone.
You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well.
Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.

How Well Do You Understand Men?

Quiz Mania

2006-03-28T16:56:00.000+08:00

Yup well i cldnt help it and now im addicted.

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen
Peacemaker, first to end a fight
Good at thinking up creative dates
Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily
Going with your gut instead of your head
Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault
Good at recognizing patterns in relationships
Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count
Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love
Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow
Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind
Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You Right Brained or Left Brained in Love?

Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing
That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back
You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys
But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you

What Do Guys Like About You?

__________________________________________________________________________________

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces

Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship
And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can
Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing
A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

What Sign Should You Date?

If this is e case so why am i so attracted to Leos and scropios?argh!

Frustration

2006-03-28T16:08:00.000+08:00

I'm bloody frustrated i cant believe that i will hv to go and face doomsday alone.!!!
kim's first day starts @ 1pm and mine starts at 9am.Its really Bad enough that i hv to wake up so darn early but now i hv to go alone on my first day.no!!!!!

Oh not forgetting they said to bring a change of clothes as well and its freakin me out like hell coz it its got anything to do with water-related activites im gonna freak out and die.I have a bad phobia of the pool.Sigh!

Anyway im gonna go ECP for a bike ride to be rid of this relentlessly persecuting frustration.

Purevolume

2006-03-17T18:06:00.000+08:00

Oh god im additcted to the site but i think they have the best music there....Check out caffine,last winter,panic at the disco and lots more.YOu hv to check out the site. Im in love with LastWinter i think i will get their Cd if only i can find it here...hmmm....

With a vengence

2006-03-17T18:02:00.000+08:00

I think the sun has something against me.Its like determined to make me go blind with all its powwerful U-v rays shining straight into my eyes and i ve nowhere else to move to in this room of mine.Sigh.

The 10 hot male species

2006-03-14T01:48:00.000+08:00

Ash asked me to put up e 10 hottest male species so im going to.Also i wanna toprove to kim ying that michael(Scott speedman is hotter than e richard guy) and tat my taste in guys is better haha.Oh and i like guys wif long hair.
Note:Kyle dun cut ur hair anymore!!

(he is not gay dammit)

(this is not e best pic..)

(think priya is rite...haha)

(it was him or johnny depp)

along wif drew frm Charmed,vane frm Dh...

Friendster...more like fiendster

2006-03-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

I finally got a freakin acct after my sis bugged me like hell along with some other ppl who hv nuthin else better to do.

i realised that friendster is more like fiendster since ppl blackmalil each other for testimonials haaha!i've been threatened more that once so i can seriously voch for my statment here.Anyone else has been blackmailed?u can vouch as well.:P

I dun follow e ways of the world....

2006-03-14T01:33:00.000+08:00

Man i wish i was a vampire...seriously..this is not a random thought...its a well thought out thought...i mean i was woken up at 1pm today..ok i may seem early to you but i only slept at 6am so its bloody early..my timings are screwed up goin to die when poly starts.

Anyway as i was saying i mean if i was a vampire nobody will complain that i sleep like e dead,wear black all the time,i think better at night,hyper too.The only prob is e blood part since im scared of blood.

Speakin of blood i hv a bloody medically check-up to go to on thurs for Sp.i hope they dun take my blood.Got x-ray as well like wat e hell all im takin is mass comm and that requires a lot fo writing,talking and maybe soem thinking so if you check my head,arms and mouth i understand but this......i dont

oh i just realsied that despite hating blood i keep using the word bloody and its my favourite word..wow e irony of that.haha!

talkin to mich e nut now.lol!she wrote me a testi sayin im violent and im not man. Shes the one who bully me ppl.Ask anyone in my sec1 class i kenna stuck as her partner la.lol!Rite now she is my midnight online bloody whom i talk to almost everyone til e wee hrs.Why i also dun know so dun ask......Like i said:I DON'T FOLLOW THEY WAYS OF THE WORLD

So Much to update!!! Part2

2006-03-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

if u havent read e previous post read tat first.

Now to my fav paart..movie reviews...oh if you guys free go to www.flixster.com n add me there.all abt movies yeah!

Went and watched shaggy dog its damn funny la.i liked it best when the dog,rats n rabbits all meditated with their paws n all esp e dog n chimp who did e lotus position....looked damn real man.... I wish max can do that....ohmm!!!...

I also watched underworld.haha!part 2 e evolution one.my god i love the movie!!!! im obessed with michael.He's soo cute haha as a vamp/werewolf..he's a hybid but he's so nice.I think there's a part 3 i hope so i pray there is then casn see him like that... u hv to watch e movie ppl....arrh!!!i want all underworld mech man.

Now to end it off...go watch underworld if u can get it like i did haha!oh and brokeback also.....till nxt time toodles!i love you guys!!!

Michael(not e underworld guy) call me so we can plan n go out for our picnic trip.I promised ur little sis.haha!cant believe i lost a bet to a 9yr old.sigh!...

I love underworld..michael........

Michael n selene-->Underworld:Eternal Love.:)

So Much to update!!!

2006-03-11T15:37:00.000+08:00

argh!The lazy bum that i am i cant be bothered to post and update my freakin blog.SIgh!and now i hv so much to update.

Warning:What u are abt to read is damn long since i havent update in ages haha! Read at your own risk.....dun blame me if u go blind seeing all these words....

Kim has been bugging me to update my blog like for so long but i, so lazy.haha!

Waah!Sharon and all the other jc peeps started already.So sad now veri little ppl so out wif la.WTF man!i lead a sad life.haha!

Went out with david and sid tat day.Acutally it was like jsut goin out wif myself since those 2 just kept on skating n skating sheesh.But then i made them wait as i went shopping.haha!They make me feel so short la i need to grow taller are there knee extensions that i can get??

Michael is like in Jc now.He said he goin poly now we cant be in the same pol.Such an arse.NOw i hv to go french ALone.!!!!

Oh yeah i go into SP mass comm waah i dun evn know y i want i put that as my choice when i want to do law in the end.SIgh!i am so .....nuthing to say

Oh yeah Lo got a new Bf called Andrew and he is indian. Man she moves so fast haha!anyway i told her tat so even if she sees this she cant kill me..that much..yup..

Sharon complaining abt TPjc her OG got this one malay dude whose mean..not goin to say y since i may get sued for slander..since now can get sued for almost everything...sheesh....

interview...dreading now.....

2006-02-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

ahhh!argh!tom is my interview bloody nervous man.how if i dun make it.Its my first one you know.ahhh!plus i talk daamn soft usualy and i have a sore throat la.just my luck.someone prob cursed me.i bet its kim ying!!!!!that idiotdun wan me get in so i can follow her to sp!!!nutcase.*grumble*

jcs!

2006-02-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

I never thought i'll even consider Jc but now i am...considering Mjc and nanyang. TPjc also but i'll see first if not SAJC all e way.My heart is set on poly though esp mass com.:D

God i will hv to prepare for an interview if i intend to get into NP's one.i shall try and sound smart and go read up abt the media.lol!Hitting the books soon @ lib. History of media here i come!

Talkin to nita now.Convinced her to get a blog.haha!but that dofus is a bit blur dunno wats her own add.hahaha.i know shes gonna kill me for this.:D... but i can't resist.

Max is being a pain as usual it keeps stealin my shoes or socks.Argh and i end up chasing it all over the house.Not to mention todays lunch as well.That dog thinks its human.sigh!

I never thought...

2006-02-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

The Power Of the Media

BY: Shanmuga Priya

Why does it matter how you wield the power of media in your hands? This is a question many should ask themselves. The answer to this is very simple but powerful.

However to fully understand it, we first need to know what does the word "Media" mean?
The definition of media is the means of mass communication, such as newspapers, magazines, radio, or television in which a message is usually conveyed to the public.

Do you remember getting a tune stuck in your head after hearing just a few notes? Then this tune just starts involuntarily buzzing around in there. For hours. It could just be a commercial jingle or the latest song from MTV. You could have heard it on the radio or just as you walk past a store. You would have been carrying this tune, humming it all the way home.

Take for an example, Pizza Hut's 2-35-35-35 jingle. Everyone knows, it from a little five years old to even the old lazy down the road who doesn’t even eat pizza.
Then there's visual media. Many of us can recall at least more than 10 advertisements, which last less than a minute each, as we sit in front of the couch watching our favourite Television programs. Examples of some of them are: a newly released music album by your favourite band or just a new pair of jeans by Levis that we would feel that we NEED to buy and making us feel lesser worth until we acquire it.

That's the power of media I am talking about. It is so persuasive, so influential that sometimes you might even end up buying something that you do not even need, thus the many shopaholics around.

The point is that music and images tend to travel with us. Good or bad, they rarely go in one ear and out the other and thus it is very important how you wield the power of media in your hands since it affects almost everyone who comes into contact with it.

A clear example would be the Danish newspaper's publications of cartoons deemed insulting Islam's Prophet Muhammad. These cartoons have sparked much controversy around the globe.

As quoted from CNN, "The cartoons have touched off protests, flag burnings and boycotts of Danish products throughout the Muslim world."

There had been much riots, demonstrations and even deaths after the publications and is still ongoing.

The cartoonist had refused to apologize for the drawings, citing freedom of speech, renewing Muslim anger.

As seen from the above-cited example, the media has an undeniably large impact on the society.

Personally I think the paper had the right to publish those cartoons, but what is the sense in doing that, when the Muslim world is in a state of paranoia and anger due to persecution and wars.

However, I feel that freedom of expression must be exercised with sensitivity and the values of people and nations must be fully respected. I feel that the publication of these cartoons is irresponsible and is of bad judgment.

On the other hand, I do not think that to censor them would be productive. If the government were to censor newspapers allowing only what they interpret as 'suitable' then it would be a major breach of our liberties to express ourselves and maybe even lose our sense of identity, freedom and creativity.

Words: 563

V-day coming!!!

2006-02-11T16:39:00.000+08:00

Yay!got my results not really happy with it though.sigh!but can't do anything with it i mean i cant change it now can i?SO i'll just leave wif it but i qualify for everythin except what i wanted.!!!ARGh!!!

Anyway V-days coming yay!and Kyles coming down.He made reservations for a candlelight dinner at bayview hotel my god.seiously i can't believe him.I love him to bits!lol!

i think i'll get max something to the poor fool hadn't had anything to play wif in a long time.

:D MOre later.i've to go kill max now he just stole my shoes!bye!

Decisions decizions.. part2

2006-02-09T16:40:00.000+08:00

Okay these are my own review like things for the various poly technies that i am considering mainly :NP,SP but also TP.

Courses i'm considering for the various polys:i hope to anymore this is like b4 the results which come out tom.

SP/NP:Mass comm,esp NP's Mass comm the equipment room is damn cool.:D. SP's one is okay i wld say easier to get in as the english only need b4 and above unlike nP's which is distinction-which i hope to get sigh!

NP's FSV is also great they even hv a 48 track recodring studio no idea what it really is looks complicated but its meant for soundtracks and stuff.It sounds fun but no idea what job opps there are since SPore's media industry is soooo small everything is owned by mediaCOrp so yeah unless can get a job there.Even the press -straitstimes,today etc...No more STreats:(

TP:law management i wanted to do law frm the begining but the idea of goin to tp is discouraging me and i've no idea y.i mean the campus is cool and all but theres like too many people i know there?!yeah maybe...ALso because i'm in love wif SP(an uglier campus what is wrong wif me?!?!?) and NP.

SP:toursim thingie is cool.attachment is to las vegas how cool is that?plus job opp wise is like can work at RI so thers hope if i want to work thought i didn't really want to work.lol!ALso i 'm not sure if i can serve ppl coz i hv this stuck-up policy of not serving anyone except meself.yupz!so i hv to consider....

SP/NP:BIT course where ive more chnaces of getting in coz the pts are higher yupz and i hv some interest in it so......

NP:biochemical engineering thing:its so cool i love chem....and i can make more goo!!! yay! i love goo!i miss my goo!it died its waterbag burst lol! while i tried to stretch it and splat it on the wall.This course also something to do wif nano technologhy but doesn't look that interesting and all its the studying type and i dun really wan to study.hehe!thats y i want a fun course but the pts are like damn low.:( sigh!
Gd luck to me for my results tom @ 2.argh!!!

Decisions Decisions...

2006-02-09T16:27:00.000+08:00

Heyz long time no update so now i'm like on a flow.sigh!you know me i'm an extreme person either i don't update or i'll update like there's no tom.There's no balance in my life!!!argh!ok now that ive gotten that off my chest i feel better.

Anyway went for all the poly open houses except republic because its way too far i'll die travelling so i idn't really consider it as one of my options.Moreover i saw the brochures they sent and under business there was nothing interesting really.....

I wanna do mass comm or FSV at NP/SP but im not sure if my results are up for it.This is so bloody sad esp for NP's one the equipment are bloody cool.damn! if i only went last yr than maybe i wld hv been more motivated.Sigh!no point regretting now!its too late.....Just hope i got 15pts and below for l1R5 so then there will still be hope for me....god help me i need a last miracle...for now!

And the nightmares begin....

2006-02-09T15:55:00.000+08:00

okay!i'm shit scared,bloody scared call it whatever you want im SCared coz tom is d-day.REsults is out tom.My future lies in a stupid piece of paper.sigh!hv to be there at tom when i actually nicely planned to go @ 430 but received an sms sayin that i had to be there at 2 to listen to Jlo talk crap.sigh!okay not crap but she just talks and talks like theres no end to tom.im glad my cuz wont be @ skl tom dun wish to see her.hope all my juniors(non-existant mostly) wont be there.i think i'll just snatch e paper and run home.hope i can sleep today i dun need a headache tom to add to my probs and the nightmares began.........:(

New year REsolution?

2006-01-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

Wow!ok i realised that i haven't updated my blog in a long...loong... time but now've made a resolution to continue writing it after all that bugging esp coming frm you ashely.hm... no idea why you even read this when its mostly ranting which i wld hv thought was enough on the phone.lol!

2005-09-19T17:34:00.000+08:00

Life is a message scribbled in the dark

Hmmm...........

2005-09-16T15:05:00.000+08:00

My french name is Shannelle Faucher.
My hawaiian name is Keandra Laka.
Irish name is Fiona O'Donnell
Jap name is Risako Kobayashi
Nick is:Mugi

Hint Hint

2005-09-16T14:40:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Project de-funk

2005-07-06T18:35:00.000+08:00

hey people i've decided to write abt the past,abt the time where we were kids who did crazy things.So i'm gonna consolidate anything and everything abt the crazy things we do as a kid so send me if you have any.

Pourquoi?

2005-07-02T17:12:00.000+08:00

Why do i feel my heart is bleeding
yet my tears never flow?
Why do i look at you and stare
and your gaze yet never follow?
Why even when its some hot weather
but without you it feels cold?
Why am I so afraid this time
when im usually bold?
Why does things have to change
things that i couldnt hold?
Why do you still hurt me again and again
when im already an injured soul?
And as our stories unfold
and the pages turn yellow
I realised that there was no longer
a happily ever after.

Conversation

2005-07-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

kyrian says:
hey gal
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
hey
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
what's up with the gal?
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
so shld i commend and reply like hey man?
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
hey dude?
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
hey boy?
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
so damn weird
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
sorry pondering over the profound english language that i have yet to understand
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
would u lik eot enlighten me later
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
the evolution is interesting
kyrian says:
yes i would agree.i see
kyrian says:
that you would t o know the evoultuion of the languages
kyrian says:
do u have a specific in mind?
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
well basically the modern english from the middle english and the medivial times of course
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
but its scripture in a way
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
like galic rite
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
i read that somewhere
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
but the mixture of italian and tamil and spanish words oh and french in english dos make it a universal language
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
except its evolved rite
kyrian says:
yes
kyrian says:
on the contary many thinkk that it was basically a single language existing formt ime
kyrian says:
except its not
kyrian says:
its evoulution
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
ic
kyrian says:
you sure know more then you shld
kyrian says:
i mean like
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
wat do u mean i shld
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
hello care to explain
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
as in for ur age
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
is it
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
*i mean my
kyrian says:
yeah
kyrian says:
its quite intense and immersing but i guess its cool if you have the interest
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
yeah the spark of evolution is burning within me
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
and i seek the truth like man
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
to defy the one thing
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
can u guess
kyrian says:
ah a riddle? i love riddles
kyrian says:
hm...
kyrian says:
man desires a lot of things but..the most of all is to defy humnaity itself
kyrian says:
and thus it has to be death
kyrian says:
the one thing man fears but yet gives meaning to life
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
yes i agree for life ot be meaningful on ehas to learn to appreciate it and beacuse there is an end there is a meaning to it.
i love ur smile and eyes.....damn i'm good at telling lies says:
rite
kyrian says:
yeah i guess in away
kyrian says:
pt taken

Nv edit exact copy!intresting conversation rite?Its cool!

View On recent publications

2005-06-26T19:13:00.000+08:00

Ok these are my own personally view on recent publications.
Ok!I totally forgot to buy new paper today so I missed the article on denies Keller dissing SPG. I wanted to know what she was going to say......hm.. Wondering if SPG will retaliate.
Anyway I don't know what's the fuss abt SPG i mean i'm neutral on the view and i dun see why everyone had to be a critic on it,dissing it and all.I've read the blog and its really quirky and interesting and she gets her point across.Posting nude pictures of herself and all long with other things i guess its her own wish.I mean come one aren't people entitled to their own opinion and to each their own?Besides it was not explicit nudity or anything and it was supposedly for artisic purposes and be it that was her aim or to get publicity?i've no idea.But if it was to get publicity she just got it.That's a mark of a true writer or one to get attention the very least.Anyway there are a lot of blogs out that have nudes pics,etc... but you can't just stop everyone one of them can you?I guess in a way i think they are just picking on her coz they feel that its a Singaporeans and asians are supposedly conservative....although i beg to differ if you take a look outside closely...scrutiny is much needed to see beyond the facades of each and everyone.We have been presented with this proper image of how the society is supposed to be and we follow it blindly and anyone who questions it will have to be put to a stop and its happening everywhere even in schools.

Whoever said discrimination among skl is not an issue anymore think again. Recently an aritcle abt the s'pore sports skl came out and i totally agree with the writer.It was how they did not accept normal and nt students there.I was like shocked to hear the news as i thought the aim of the skl was to help nuture the talents of students in sports and help them to excel in it and also only the best amng the best.Apparently not as they would not accept na or nt(not sure abt na) students even if they played soccer like fandi ahmad?Can you believe that?Such discrimination??!!Its apalling.In my skl,the nt students are actually the best in sports and so with such resitcition they are acutally hindering the potential of the next olmypics winner etc....I mean if they want star students we have raffles and acs rite?Y another one?Hopefully they would review it soon.Maybe others in the future will get the chance.
Ok end!tats all write later.bye!Tell me what you think@!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wheew!

2005-06-26T18:39:00.000+08:00

Hi!people sorry haven't updated in a while been busy and right now i'm on a marathorn and its not a fun one all homework only.Sigh!i know its my fault and i'm procastinating still and tommorow is like my end to my beloved holidays.Sigh!i miss it already and its not evben over yet but i can feel the effects of skl atarting already.Depression depression!anyway let me update you on the latest news and updates.Hmm...let's see

Bav got a blog!!!!Can u believe it?its like guiness world record or something.haha!After all that bugging maybe it paid of but i think it was someone else who persuaded her.i wonder who?read her blog...wonder who is julio?i think hmm...............ha!Suspense!suspense!

OH!i so wanna get a tattoo...at my ankle haha!i know of all places.I saw this tribal/celtic mixture and it was soooooo cool. It will be like a permamnet anklet.Although i would rather get it on my wrist but if i'm going to get it now its better if its hidden of course oh i can just wait till december. Prepare myself mentally to endure the pain.Sigh!I'm such a coward seriously i wish they would provide us with anestatics.Sigh!One of my life;s greatest asipration.

Anyway back to homework nuthing much to say acutally!so ta!

Torn

2005-06-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

My inspiration has run dry
Thats whats going on, nothings right,
Im torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Im all out of faith, this is how I feel
Im cold and I’m ashamed bound and broken on the floor
You’re a little late, I’m already torn

2005-06-15T22:46:00.000+08:00

The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in.

AlRiGhTiE....

2005-06-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

sigh!Another day going by...wasted it as usual only did one essay the whole day had tution.tommrow going to Lo's house to do lit which i need help!Stupid lit i think i shld go and listen to it while i sleep maybe will imprint into my subconsicious mind.I hope!Hmm..maybe i shld try that.Sigh!Damn quotes!Hate shakespear.Die!die!die!Wait he's dead already.if he wasn't i would have probably killed him give me so much probs with stupid quotes to memories and texts to analyse.Why don't the dead ever leave us in peace.Sigh!Anyway no updates yet on jit's love story i will post if i have nothing to do acutally.Chatting with bav and tulip and Kyrian and ben and thin the arse who kept buging my to play the stupid show down game which i have no clue how to play and i think the only reason she wants to play is coz she wins.Dun want to play checkersd with me coz she knows she will lose.Sore loser!pfft!!!!!!!!!!!haha!Tulip is telling me abt her trip and how Peh is cute.I think she is blind coz almost everyone think he's ugly and old and he's ur pe teacher for god sake well not for our class but still...eeew!!!!!!!Anyway i dun get why my love life matters to ppl.Seriously not that i have one and even if i have i won't tell anyone and i have my rights to my privacy so there.Seriously i'm not gonna post it anywhere or tell anyone unless if i'm really serious abt the person there is not need for anyone to know abt him.rite?i think tat's smart.Besides it a better way in case u break up than everyone meet.sigh!I hope some ppl get my hint.And wondering what's happening with lo........hmm...i bet she's gonna tell and bug me abt it tom.sigh"!Trapped!The things i do for lit.sigh!Anyway i saw charmed today.so happy.ok i know that it sounds stupid but i love the program and it opened up somethings to me that i nv realise that existed although i knew something was amiss at times.Sigh!What am i going to do abt wicca?No idea.i dun think i'm gonna do anything i prefer to be normal and i'll see where life takes me.Man!i miss being a kid seriously i wish they would hang on to the moments coz you're nv getting it back once its gone and yup...i miss all that fun and innocence the purity of it all.Anyway now with skl and i dunno why ppl feel the pressure of getting a bf coz everyone's getting it.sigh!Suddenly guys hitting on you.feels weird i think.Not bad coz thery cute and nice and sweet at times.........haha!ALrightie gtg.wirte more later bye!

JIt LOVe STory

2005-06-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

Another day went by as usual though not as boring as the other days as i didn't acutally sit down and stone while trying to comprehend my homework at the same time.Anyway went to ECP today with alli(jit) and sharon.Haruna the dumbass couldn't come...coz she had to go to some prayers.uh huh like i believe tat......anyway it was so funny coz jit got injured further on her injured leg by a cyclist while she was trying to untangle four balloons that i tangled(i'm so proud of that).I had 2balloons at first (Was free coz had some stupid stay on track campain..their slogan was like have fun the safe way which sounded wrong coz its like advertising for PMS)like wat the huh?Duh i bet they just didn't realise the dumbasses.Anyway moving on.i MISS MY balloons...okok anyway we cycled away abt 1.5hrs and then had macs haha!i know e exercise almost ptless but we didn't st.away we went to the breakwater and sat there first abt 45mins so fun making fun of the ppl there.:PLet's see back home now bored again stupid jit with me sitting beside me as i am typing this she is staying over...again...haha!she lives here la gooing to get pr soon.Oh btw!she's married.let me tell u her story it damn funny.:

Jit's love story

Ok basically she has like 3 boyfriends named:Stuart,Max and Ah meng.

She went out with all three of them at once so she's a three timer anyway yup now she's enaged to one dating another and married to Ah meng.Currently she's still seeing Stuart and is planning to get a divorce with Ah Meng coz he's too hairy and stuart seems more gentlemenly.yup!She is still not giving up on max and decides to give him one more chance as he tends to get violent at times we'll see how this relationship goes.So if we need a witness for her 2nd marriage we'll let you know and you can apply for this honourable position via the guestbook or the tagboard.Hurry its a first come first basis.This story has no ending yet and when it does i'll post it here.Pls look out for more details and info on their love triangle.Pictures might be posted here too if jit does not burn everyone of them whenever she gets the chance.'So look out for them.!

Love your reporter

live from my house

Signing off!Ta!

Yup!That's the story of her life,Anyway talked to kyrian and jaspreet today.Jaspreet was an idiot dun want to tell me abt the handwriting thing till i begged here.Sigh!see what i'm reduced to?!Kyrian was so sad today and his dad is an total asshole.I dun see how a dad who is the only family member left can treat his son like tat.So i spent the whole chat with him trying to cheer him up.Hopefully he doesn't get drunk too much.......Didn't talk to bav today.Where were u ah waiting for you nicely at 8.30 sheesh!Always not there on time.Make me wait only.ALrighte that's abt it i guess .......gtg.bye!

Quizzy

2005-06-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

Ok!i know everyone complains whenever i put a quiz on my blog and i've no idea y.NOt tat i care so back off ppl.i like it this way.ha!The only reason i put it up is for refrence so that you can also take it if you want and its a matter of choice so quit complaining.Btw for those who are interested i think this quiz is quite true.

You're a very mellow, care-free person. Your
exactly what calm, cool, and collected mean.
You never overreact or panic in a bad situation
and you always know what to do. Everyone goes
to you for advice because you never lose your
head so your very reliable. You tend to take
everything in stride, like in school your moto
is just sit back and relax not to say you dont
pay attention and work, but you dont overexert
yourself. Even though people come to you for
counciling(sp?) you can still be very quite,
your not good with making new friends, but your
extremely close to the ones you have. Remember
its ok to put your emotions out there even
though there is a chance they might get hurt.
Also in school sometimes its good to stress out
a little, just because you think you dont need
to study doesnt mean you should'nt, and also
try to push yourself more even though you might
be good where you are doesnt mean you can,t be
better.

Whats Your Personality(with PICS)
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D-Day

2005-06-09T13:47:00.000+08:00

Another day going by.....slowly.Kyrian,ben and ashley is online at the same time along with michelle,lorraine,thin and my cuz.Wow!now i'm like chatting with all of them plus someother peep that i have no idea who but im just pretending that i know who it is.ha!Lorraine just reminded me of work as soon as i logged on the arse...Just knows how to dampen my mood.I just saw michelle's blog ok its also donna's and rubi's they are all sharing one blog.i bet michelle is just too lazy to get one herself.haha!:PAnyway i realised i missed a lot for the whole week of not calling ash and now things are getting hectic there.Sigh!its like i've not enough probs here i also hv prob's there...anyway gtg to my lit notes or lo and jas will kill me.gtg bye write later.
Where is Sharon? where's the gal?Make me wait so long while she eats i mean ppl shld learn to eat faster at times sigh...........

Shocking

2005-06-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

hi!peeps!Sigh!bloody bored..not really i'm just procastinating as usual having no desire in me to do my mountainous pile of homework that keeps on piling.Listening to lonely no more by rob thomas.... again.I'm obessessed over it.sigh!Well i guess its worth obessessing over.Anyway rite now chatting with my cuz,thin and kyrian and ben.ha!I can't believe ben turned gay....but then again he's full of shocks but i think this takes the cake.I mean him being the i'll sleep with anyone i want and you can't stop me jerk to are my rings on my fingers nice?That's an extreme.He can be such a jerk and arse at times but i still think he's funny.....Moving on...Oh yeah i remembered that my stupid cuz(sry for calling u tat but it was neccessary to make my pt:P),bav nv comment abt my blog i need to know how it is from another person's pt of view and she made me wait 4 her sooooooooooooo long online.sigh!Kyrian is getting another tatoo on his back cool i can't wait to see it. Now he has like 4?5?I Have no idea how he can tolerate the pain i mean i've been thinkin of getting one but the thought of the pain and reducing myself to a blubbering fool infront of a total stanger,esp not a tattoo artist with the sharp thing on his hand.I think i'll pass and wait till i'm 18 so i can get drunk and then i'll get one or if i'm on anestactics.K gtg now i'll write more later.Bye!

Emotions

2005-06-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

Emotions
These emotions that i feel
Are very hard to heal
For they linger in the inside
Like the scars of those abused
Hard to express from the inside
Hard to decipher from the outside
Yet we try with all our might
To hide away from these very emotions
For we fear we might see the truth
through these lingering emotions
Ever lingering
In our hearts
And in our mind

The absolute truth!

2005-06-05T19:30:00.000+08:00

Do not walk behind me,
for I may not lead.
Do not walk ahead of me, for I may not follow.
Do not walk beside me, either.
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE !

Intellect...needed

2005-06-05T19:22:00.000+08:00

Another brilyunt mind diztroyed
by the publik edukashun sistum.

For those witless ppl who dun get it it says...Another brilliant mind destroyed by the public education system.Come on ppl?It's not even in greek this time and you need translations?pfft!

Another day flew away...

2005-06-05T18:55:00.000+08:00

Μια άλλη ημέρα από... το στεναγμό χθες βγήκα με Sharon για να πάω και να προσέξω έναν κινηματογράφο αποκαλούμενο Madagascar..it ήταν αστείο ι think..most it..though που ήταν πάρα πολύ σύντομη αγάπη ι τα penguins.Αμέσως .. μιλώ στο kyrian aka kyle... στον καθαρό και αυτός μεταφράζω όλο αυτό για με blog στην είσοδο greek.haha!my στα ελληνικά ναι.Καλά υπό τον όρο ότι σταματά με όλος του φλερτάροντας ha!My cuz σκέφτεται ότι επίσης bassist much.crazy εγώ του σκέφτεται πιωμένο πάλι κακό influnece.i'm τόσο ευτυχές του όχι ναι ή θα καταλήξω πιθανώς πιμένος όπως τον αντί του preventin τον από την κατανάλωση αλλά υποθέτω δεν μπορεί να ενισχυθεί εάν ζείτε και εργαστείτε σε μια λέσχη μπορείτε;Εν πάση περιπτώσει φταμένα στην εργασία λογοτεχνίας go..got για να κάνουν και maths..sigh!Life sucks.i'll γράφουν αργότερα αντίο! Didn't get this?Read the translated version below!
___________________________________________________________________
Another day gone by...sigh yesterday i went out with Sharon to go and watch a movie called Madagascar..it was funny i think..most of it..though it was too short i love the penguins.
Right now.. i'm talking to kyrian aka kyle...on the net and he is translating all this for me in greek.haha!my 1st entry in greek yeah.Well provided he stops with all his flirting ha!My cuz thinks he's too much.crazy bassist i think he's drunk again.Bad influnece.i'm so glad he's not yeah or i'll probably end up being drunk like him instead of preventin him from drinking but i guess it can't be helped if you live and work at a club can you?Anyway got to go..got literature homework to do and maths..sigh!Life sucks.i'll write more later bye!

Alrightie

2005-06-05T15:36:00.000+08:00

Alrite nothing much to post acutally....anyway my posts will be from 2 sides of me..haha yeap me and my ........alter ego....total 2 diff ppl.Till then..........